I totally understand how you feel. My anxiety was triggered by fear of death and ever since i've been having attacks on and off and now its happening again. after an attack i usually feel very sad because i keep thinking that i have to live with this. I went to the doctor and was prescribed klonopin but i haven't filled the prescription yet. i decided to take calm tabs first to see if they would help and if not then i'll resort to klonopin. If u decide to take them please tell me how it works and i will tell u whether or not calm tablets is working for me. Try to be positive. We can and we will get through this

absolutely! i can relate to that, anything related to death makes me panic. the thought of my father age 65 dying breaks my soul in so many pieces, or any loved ones for that matter. my mother passed away when i was 6 years old, i have a daughter of my own now. i hate living with this. please do let me know! Yes we will get through this, i wish i knew someone like you in real life it seems nobody understands my sensitivity to death, or harm. I was told it's because i have an old soul. You must have one too.

I am always worried that something is going to happen to my kids that will be unexpected and unthinkable, but I have always told myself that it will never happen to me. Now I always think, omg - what would I do IF this actually happens today? I do drink way more than I used to. :( I start to panic if I don't have it in my fridge. it helps me cope - so I tell myself. Does that make sense???

I wish being an 'old soul' didn't have to be so complicated. I hate living like this too and its hard to tell other people about it because they don't understand and it makes me feel abnormal and like i'm losing my mind. But I'm here for u :-) Knowing that u have someone who understands what you're going through gives me hope. I feel like I'm not alone and the great thing is other people have been through this and are more than ok now. And we will be too. I took a calm tablet today and I felt ok. I'm allowed to take up to four a day. I'm going to take one before going to bed.

@jenmarie14... It makes a lot of sense. For me, having my phone gives me some form of assurance because whenever I'm having an anxiety attack I call my mom. She doesn't really understand but she helps to calm me down. Now if I don't have my phone that's when I get nervous. But I don't want to be dependent and I'm sure u don't want to depend on drinking either. Maybe u could find another mode to cope. I plan on starting yoga classes soon. Maybe u could try it too. :-)

Sarah894- What stood out to me in your post is that you feel like a 5 year old trapped in an adults body. Then I read your post about your mother dying at age 6. I am wondering if all the anxiety is due to never being able to process her passing? When we have trauma or grief we can feel stuck at that age if we haven't been able to heal and make sense of the world. I wonder if your emotions are surfacing from the pain you've carried for so long. I may be way off track, but its worth questioning? I hope you find peace.

The way I see it you've hidden from your emotional crises for years in the alcohol ( I hid in cigarettes) and now you're out, you're having to start from where you left off.

Where you start from is irrelevant, but where you're headed makes all the difference. Every anxiety attack you have is one you don't have to have again.

Meantime I don't go near the news. Too horrible. And I avoid people who enjoy chuntering about bad news, doom and gloom. I watch a lot of kitten videos on facebook. I myself post only funny memes.

Nurture yourself. You've done a great thing getting off the booze and staying off the booze. Your anxiety is just the backlog of unexpressed emotion you were keeping at bay with the alcohol. My philosophy is to let it all flow through you, endure the pain of it, but let it happen. Every single one brings some kind of jewel of understanding: some added wisdom and discovery. It's worth it. :)

@eshaw WOW i had never thought of it in that way, i thought i did my grieving.. i cried a lot.. i still cry. Sometimes when i am panicking all i can think is "I wish i could crawl in my moms bed with her and just fall asleep" this is all bringing to many emotions out, so many tears. how do you think i should get the grieving over with? I have a daughter of my own, she's amazing she looks just like me, mind you i look exactly like my mother. I have my dad too, he raised me and my siblings but he was a little bit mentally handicapped with not being able to read or write he was abused heavily as a child. My dad is easily my hero. sorry i keep blabbing on.. i am getting a little emotional with all this support. thank you everyone. it helps my soul to know people care. but on the other hand, perhaps i am an empath because i feel so terrible that other people are going through this anxiety too. I feel so much pain for everyone who posts in this support group. I just want to take everyone and hug them and tell them it's going to be okay.... in a very motherly way :) and @jenmarie14 i can totally understand 110% i am so sorry, it's one day at a time but you can overcome the drinking! i once heard something along the lines of "drinking may take away the pain today, but tomorrow it's twice as strong" mind you, i only turn 21 on the 26th of this month so i don't have all the wisdom i would like. I Just want to thank everyone, and i hope everyone can find peace.

I use klonopin as needed and it works wonders for me when I'm having a really bad time with anxiety.

Hey everyone. I went to a herbal store in my hometown today to get some chamomile tea and a lady who works there told me about a Youtube video. Its called Emotional Freedom Technique by Brad Yates. I tried it and it really helped me to relax. Check it out and let me know what you all think.

anna8701 as soon as i get the chance i will try that my 11 month old is sure keeping me busy as well! i took a klonopin and i feel better... i like it because i still have to fight through my anxiety but it makes it easier.