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Ocd false memories

Luce
Luce

Hi,I remember anxiously thinking worrying about something that haunted me throughout 2003/2007,now I'm pretty sure that I no what was running through my mind between them years!! But because of my current fear obbession 'have i killied someone in my past and forgotten' it seems to be connecting this current fear of mine,and making me believe that really throughout those years I was actually anxiously thinking worrying about a murder I must of committed?? Is ocd distorting my original worries of something that was allready causing me at the time huge levels of antiexty into something even more sinister aka 'was I really worrying about a murder I committed!! I can visualise myslef thinking this in the past more than what I think originally was going through my mind!! When I go back to these memories I can see myslef worrying about an event!! But can't put a face,name or a place this could of happened,but back then I did no!! And forgotten till now!! Please help!!!!

misleadingsmile
misleadingsmile
I have no practical suggestions to offer...however , if you're a believer, you could always try a hypnotherapist to delve into your subconscious and extract the truth...I'm not going to vote for or against, that decision is yours to make
Gladdmatt
Gladdmatt
It's theoretically possible but highly unlikely that you did such a major thing and blanked it out. You need to see a psychiatrist about this and also probably a psychologist to get to the truth here. One possibility is that this is a form of self-loathing, but again consult professionals.
betterpath24
betterpath24
Are there any legitimate reasons you may think you did this? I.e was someone you knew killed, etc.
Sounds like you may have PTSD? I do and have many lapses in time in my memories and they are all conjumbled from an awful time in my own life. My therapist helps me to increase my quality of life while very slowly and gently releasing some of what I went through. Some people suggest not even trying to remember related to it causing more harm than good but I believe you should go as far as you feel comfortable with and stop if you begin to panic, etc. I hope this makes sense lol. I'm sorry for whatever it was that you went through- minds do have a way of convincing you thoroughly of things that are completely false so you can't always trust your thoughts. I hope you get the help you need.
Luce
Luce
I all,I have seen many many specalists and specialist online and they have all said ocd!!! Intrusive thoughts!!
Luce
Luce
It just came to me one day as an intrusive thought 'have i killied someone in my past and forgotten' so I do a ocd compulsion of searching into my past to find any reason why I would?? It doesn't help knowing that sometimes I get very angry
Luce
Luce
No nobody I knew had died!
WolfgangMinerva
WolfgangMinerva
I read a book about OCD that described how some sufferers drive home then suddenly they are afraid that they ran someone over with their cars. So they get back in the car and go back to see if there's a body in the street. And then they repeat the whole thing. If you have OCD and you think you killed someone, YOU DIDN'T.
You need to get help for the anxiety that's behind OCD. Repeat, you didn't kill anyone. Period.
Luce
Luce
But I remember living with something in my head,Between the peroid of 2003/2007 I no I was afraid 'what if I get caught' I remember that running through my head' I remember 'dad I'm not the person you think I am' my fear is making connections to all this is can remember!! If I didn't remember these memories I could dismiss this!!!!