Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I get to the point where i obsess over a little detail, it's weird okay.. I don't know how to explain but i need things to be a certain way, (Not everything though) Like i need to eat dinner at a certain time, and me and my family NEED to watch movies/shows at certain times and i need this or that, it's like i need everything to be in a perfect line schedule wise or timing wise or my whole balance will be messed up, It's even seeming that way with my bowel movements.. I'm used to going twice every week but since monday i've felt like i haven't gone to the bathroom in ages when i just went the night before. Its got me worried that even when i go again, it'll just be two more days until i feel completely full up like i haven't been to the bathroom for days! Which will make me worry about my health, my diet, my..everything..
I hate change, especially changes like these that make me constantly paranoid and obsess..
Any advice or similar stories?
I hate change, especially changes like these that make me constantly paranoid and obsess..
Any advice or similar stories?
I worry about my health all the time, I have depression, Anxiety, Borderline personality disorder, ocd, pmdd, mood swings, the whole shabang and some days its just ridiculous! i get so overwhelmed. lol I hope you feel better!
Basically what is going on here is that you feel compulsions to worry. All of us do. That is pretty much at the heart of our problem. It is caused by a lifetime of negative thinking that has become such a habit that we don't know how to NOT do it. We feel like we have to be worrying about something or we don't feel normal. It is an addiction.
All of the compulsions you describe, are your way of giving yourself a "fix". They are there for a reason. They are satisfying your urge to dwell and obsess and worry. Even though obsessing and worrying drive you up the wall, you are not comfortable unless you are doing them. So worrying about your routine is how you subconsciously chose to fix the problem. It is really common, so don't feel down about yourself.
I think the other component is that trying to eliminate change from your life gives you a sense of control that you otherwise wouldn't feel. Let's face it, we all feel pretty powerless at times and I speak from experience when I say that following a ritual helps to easy my anxiety. It is a false sense of security of course, but again, it is a nice "fix" for a while. Until the next urge comes along, that is.