By the way the weight loss is due to me walking an trying to eat right

you sound like you are very aware of how you are feeling and the reasons behind the feelings. i think for most of us this would be outrageous progress. continue to be honest with yourself. and keep up the excellent work.the reason you haven't gotten your period may have something to do with stress, the great equalizer.you are losing weight which u want 2 do. you are aware of your hypochon. tendencies and continue to question your motives which sounds healthy to me . atleast u don't blindly believe u have every disease you've heard of. one day your little girl is going to be very proud of you. pls. keep posting about your progress...barri

oh yea anxiety can make anything worse....just relax the last 3 months ive had everything under the sun.....and these days its my heart

Barri- thank you. I just hate being this way, i mean why cant i be just normal and not live in fear!! You know?
Overit- aughh ive had the heart thing too, i took myself to the ER 5 times last year because of it. And i had a high medical
Bill too!!

oh yea i have 3 cardio drs right now...its sucks ass

Some of the best advice I ever got....I think it was from somebody here.....was to trust facts, not feelings. I use this advice a lot and it really comes in handy. Feelings are left to interpretation. Facts are not.

The facts for you are that you are WAY younger than most people with bone cancer and ovarian cancer. You have no family history of cancer. And you have no symptoms that couldn't easily be attributed to weight gain or an impending period. Therefore the possibility of your having either of those diseases is really, really remote.

So since the facts are obviously steering you towards a clean bill of health...why can't you let go of your fear? Because you have a worry compulsion which is basically like an itch that never stops needing to be scratched. But if you ignore any part of your body that itches, eventually it will stop. And if you ignore any urge you have to worry......it will stop too. You just have to be consistent and persistent.

Great thoughts Lillygirl! I remember hearing once that whatever I am feeling right now is in direct response to a thought I just had...even if I don't realize I had the thought. One of my common fears is that I am having a stroke. I then have to go through all of the things I do to "challenge and disprove" that thought. That's because my mom had strokes. I know someone else who worries she won't wake up. That's because her mom didn't wake up. I am getting so much better on not "dwelling" on that crazy thinking. I ask myself is it danger or discomfort. 99.9% of the time it is discomfort and that sucks......but it's better than it actually being danger.

It took awhile before I could disprove all my crazy health related thinking. As long as I've had it before and I've disproved it (sometimes by going to the dr) then I don't have to do it again the next time. It's easier to tell myself it's not real. Now when it's a symptom I haven't had before.....well that puts me into panic mode and much harder to let go.

I hope you get to feeling better soon!

That is a really good plan Scooter. I like that! If my hypochondria ever comes back, I will remember that.

I used to worry about having a stroke too. Which was ridiculous because I would be serving drinks at the bar I worked at, communicating perfectly fine with everybody. I guess I thought I was one of those miraculous people who could still pour a perfect martini while in the middle of a stroke...lol.

Ahh Scared Silly I hope you won't be pissed with what I am about to say but i was smiling as i read your post. I thought i had ovarian cancer a couple of months ago too. I got my period twice in a month ( due to stress) and went straight to Dr Google which II vow to myself I won't do any more but it's sirens song just keeps dragging me back. My current thing is neck cancer. The neck pain isn't going away and I am beating myself up because I used to work behind a bar when smoking was allowed in bars (over 15 years ago BTW) and was a very occasional smoker in my youth even thought I haven't touched a cigarette in 15 years. My doctor has run all the appropriate tests and everything is OK but then I saw Michael Douglas on Oprah talking about his throat cancer and it got me all fretful again. It would be kind of funny if I didn't have anxiety but thankfully sensible Alphie is in charge at the moment and I am doing the neck exercises my physiotherapist has given me and taking mild pain relief and using my heat pack so hopefully I will notice a difference soon. i hope the same goes for you.

ohmygoodness, you sound just like me!

When I first got anxiety, I thought I had a heart defect which was triggered by a doctor (med student) in the ER who was treating me for gastro said my heart was beating very fast...I obsessed for years after that....then....I diagnosed myself with MS a few years ago...I don't have MS...and now my latest one is cancer (after I started working in oncology so now know too much!). I recently lost a friend to cancer and it started with a lump in her arm....guess what I discovered yesterday...a lump in my arm...so I rush off to the doctors who reassures me it's probably nothing and who also told me that if you start looking for lumps on your body...you'll find lots so don't torture yourself! Now....I'm obsessing about every little ache and pain (I'm also pregnant) and trying to resist the temptation to look for lumps everywhere!!!! Anxiety is exhausting!!!

I never worried so much about having a disease until dealing with this anxiety.I've been having terrible stomach and back pains and my dr. thinks it might be an ulcer. It's been going on for over 2 mths and I've pretty much convinced myself that i have stomach cancer! I don't ususally run to the dr. for all of my aches and pains but I think it would probably make me feel better if I got this checked out more.I know exactly what you mean when you say you start thinking about terrible diseases.And usually I think it ends up just being anxiety so I guess the best thing to do is to do our best to get this anxiety in check andthe physical feelings will subside. I think theres a line you have to draw though especially if whatever you have i really hurting and producing bad symptoms. I think the worse thing you can do is to look at imformation describing different diseases. I just looked it up in the med dictionary and read about stomach cancer and ...oh well you know the rest! I hope you start feeling better and I think we both need practice at not over reacting. I think that just feeds the anxiety and that makes our physical symptoms worse.Good luck to you and practice! O