Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I have noticed that I wake up with horrible anxieties! Every single morning negative thoughts enter my head the second I wake up and stay there for at least a couple hours then I start to feel a little better. I also get very jittery and shaky. Then around 5 every evening is when this annoying depression takes over and I'm down for the rest of the night. I can never shake it no matter what I do. I start thinking I'll never feel better and this is the way my life is always going to be and what if it gets worse? What if I get so bad I either end up in a mental hospital or even worse what if I get so down and depressed that I start getting suicidal? That's one of my worst nightmares but I try to remind myself I'm so scared of death why would I end up trying to kill myself? I also think of a quote someone once told me...."A crazy person doesn't know they're crazy." Another thing that's really been bugging me lately is I really feel like I'm losing my brain as far as memory and all that good stuff goes. My short term memory has completely gone out the door. I will walk into a room and completely forget what I went in there for or call someone and as soon as they answer have to say wow I completely forgot what I called you for. I will be in the middle of a conversation with someone and completely lose my train of thought. I have never been this way! It's making me think once again there is actually something wrong like a brain tumor or something which of course fuels the anxiety. Just feels never ending at this point but then there's other times during the day where I get excited because I feel like I can do this and will get through it but then those certain times of day hit and I'm down in the dumps again. Will I really be better someday?
I just started meds yesterday. Lorazepam... I can feel a difference already,
This website is BRILLIANT for anxiety sufferers. I read it almost every day. I'm in the middle of an anxiety cycle quite like yours and it's horrid. What does help a huge amount is medications (for me) and talking it out. I have this tendency to go in my head and that's where the danger starts for me. I stop talking and start scaring myself. I think what would help you most is to get a couple good nights sleep and try some meds that help you calm down enough to get your head on straight. (I'm talking like over just a couple days) after you can calm back down it's much easier to be rational. I've learned everything I know about anxiety from that website. They say once you find the core of your anxiety you need to work with it, once you do that, anxiety becomes very easy to manage, but until you get out of that fear cycle, it will just keep coming.
I also know that feeling of it being worse in the mornings. I woke up this morning almost in a complete panic attack. It makes me dread waking up.
Another thing that helps me is buddhist philosophy. They say "nothing lasts forever" which means that this WILL pass, it has too. It just feels awful while it's here :(
You can PM me anytime if you need someone to talk to :)