Due to a reorganisation at work and awful interview I found myself at one point at risk of redundancy, and then having to accept a lower graded job or I would make myself redundant and forth fit any redundancy rights. I'm fortunate that is pay protected for a set time. The job is not one I would ever willing chose, but I decide to make the most of it.

I soon discovered that there is no real job content and for some it would be a dream job of not having much to do. For myself who has a strong work ethic its a nightmare. I find myself clock watching and wishing the day away. The only plus side is the people I work with are really nice.

I'm actively looking for another job. I have spoken to my manager who agrees with my view about the job, but has honestly told me that is the situation.

I'm aware so additional work is coming so asked if I could pick this up and was told they need to get someone else in as they have the funding for this role and will lose it. This really goes against my values.

I feel very hopeless. I'm trying to find extra work, offer to help and this is getting me nowhere. I feel very anxious and stressed. I'm not sleeping very well and eczema has flared up around my eyes due to stress. I cannot leave the job as I have financial commitments and a partner to support.

I know I need to network and self promote myself, but find this so hard to do. I know I'm being very hard on myself and aware in the past I have used work to give myself a sense of achievement.