Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
So i'm really worried about my bowel movements lately, and it's really drawn on and kind of embarrasing but i figure everyone has these problems sometimes and we're all supportive here, i'm trying to figure out what last monday and this saturday have in common because i think the change in my bowel movements has to do with anxiety/stress but i can't be sure.. Heres something i wrote up to compare/detail the days:
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Monday april 11th and saturday april 15th similarities that maybe my mind could construe as "danger" or "fear" or "anxiety inducing" And such.
Both days were stormy, even though saturday was on and off sunny/blue skies it was mostly raining and extremely cloudy, and monday didn't even get sunny once during the entire afternoon.
On monday i ate at the normal time, on saturday i ate two hours later than i usually do which might have reminded me of the thursday when i had a panic attack because i had energy drink and didn' t eat until about three which cauesed me to freak out, maybe i got a little anxious remembering that day
Notes: Reading over my blog for monday i don't even remember feeling the way i feel today on that day, but i know i did because i mention it several times that i felt anxious and weird, but i don't remember when it started, i know i ate the creamy beef stuff with potatos and it didn't happen then, and i was outside most of the day and don't remember when exactly this feeling "kicked in"
On saturday, this day.. it kicked in right after i finished up my graphics project and my dad was getting ready to go to nap, I had started freaking about being late on lunch and not knowing what to eat, i had eaten chips to begin with and nothing else and then the feeling started to feel weirder, the feeling i get when i haven't gone to the bathroom in a week, which usually only happens A WEEK after the last bowel movement i have, And i had my last one on wednesday, which was two days ago..
On last saturday, which was when the pattern broke I guess, i expected not to go again until the following saturday, which would be today, That would be acceptable to feel like i hadn't gone in a week, because it would have been true.. but on monday i started to feel like i hadn't gone in over a week and i was constipated but nothing would come out, i just kept feeling like i had to go to the bathroom, the feeling went away on tuesday, i seriously didn't feel it at all but on wednesday i went to the bathroom after a while and i thought that i wouldn't go again until next week, but already on this saturday i feel like i haven't gone in forever and that i'm constipated, theres a pressure and it's really bothering me.
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Thats all i got so far, i don't know what could be causing this anxiety, if thats what it is, But the fact that my bowel movements aren't the same as they normally are is seriously freaking me out and causing me more panic and anxiety which probably isn't helping, I'm worried theres something wrong with me and i can't pinpoint anything on monday and this saturday that seem the same... One of the biggest reasons i'm worried is because we have no medical insurence and then i have the what ifs about "what if theres something wrong with me" or "what if i'm dying" or "what if i'm coming down with something horrible" and the thoughts that even if we did have insurance, i hate doctors and hospitals give me anxiety. :/ Also, if i am constipated, what is causing it? My diet never changes and i'm also afraid of using Laxatives because they give me serious anxiety about my bowel movements and other things.
Anyone, anyone at all, Do you have any advice or are you going through something similar? I just really need to feel like i'm not alone and that i'm not doomed to a constant pattern of this worrying and pain.. :/
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Monday april 11th and saturday april 15th similarities that maybe my mind could construe as "danger" or "fear" or "anxiety inducing" And such.
Both days were stormy, even though saturday was on and off sunny/blue skies it was mostly raining and extremely cloudy, and monday didn't even get sunny once during the entire afternoon.
On monday i ate at the normal time, on saturday i ate two hours later than i usually do which might have reminded me of the thursday when i had a panic attack because i had energy drink and didn' t eat until about three which cauesed me to freak out, maybe i got a little anxious remembering that day
Notes: Reading over my blog for monday i don't even remember feeling the way i feel today on that day, but i know i did because i mention it several times that i felt anxious and weird, but i don't remember when it started, i know i ate the creamy beef stuff with potatos and it didn't happen then, and i was outside most of the day and don't remember when exactly this feeling "kicked in"
On saturday, this day.. it kicked in right after i finished up my graphics project and my dad was getting ready to go to nap, I had started freaking about being late on lunch and not knowing what to eat, i had eaten chips to begin with and nothing else and then the feeling started to feel weirder, the feeling i get when i haven't gone to the bathroom in a week, which usually only happens A WEEK after the last bowel movement i have, And i had my last one on wednesday, which was two days ago..
On last saturday, which was when the pattern broke I guess, i expected not to go again until the following saturday, which would be today, That would be acceptable to feel like i hadn't gone in a week, because it would have been true.. but on monday i started to feel like i hadn't gone in over a week and i was constipated but nothing would come out, i just kept feeling like i had to go to the bathroom, the feeling went away on tuesday, i seriously didn't feel it at all but on wednesday i went to the bathroom after a while and i thought that i wouldn't go again until next week, but already on this saturday i feel like i haven't gone in forever and that i'm constipated, theres a pressure and it's really bothering me.
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Thats all i got so far, i don't know what could be causing this anxiety, if thats what it is, But the fact that my bowel movements aren't the same as they normally are is seriously freaking me out and causing me more panic and anxiety which probably isn't helping, I'm worried theres something wrong with me and i can't pinpoint anything on monday and this saturday that seem the same... One of the biggest reasons i'm worried is because we have no medical insurence and then i have the what ifs about "what if theres something wrong with me" or "what if i'm dying" or "what if i'm coming down with something horrible" and the thoughts that even if we did have insurance, i hate doctors and hospitals give me anxiety. :/ Also, if i am constipated, what is causing it? My diet never changes and i'm also afraid of using Laxatives because they give me serious anxiety about my bowel movements and other things.
Anyone, anyone at all, Do you have any advice or are you going through something similar? I just really need to feel like i'm not alone and that i'm not doomed to a constant pattern of this worrying and pain.. :/
My anxiety comes mostly from my chest. I get sudden sharp pains in my chest that lasts seconds. I have had tests done all the time & I am fine. Its just my anxietys.
Its amazing what your body can do to add to those feelings. Try positive thinking. Or breathing techniques. Those work good. I know its hard to have positive thinking when you dont have insurance, but if its necessary to make you feel better go to the er. Then they can tell u ur fine. :)