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I am also irresponsible and can't seem to get my head back in the game for school work. I hate paperwork and feel like I am being a whiny crybaby right now....Yes I know that. I am told that every day. I have a mountain of paperwork to do, and my grades are a mess....

Please find a good therapist to talk to you face-to-face. Also check into a possible medication that might help you. A primary care doctor can prescribe and antidepressant for you to try. Try studying first and then rewarding yourself Bassi and your boyfriend later. It should help you feel better about yourself Also. Welcome to the site. I am new here also.

Hi there! It sounds like you definitely need some medication so that you can focus on your school work. I doubt you are "irresponsible" (I mean, you could be making a conscious choice to be irresponsible, I guess) but that you are probably feeling that way due to your depression and attention issues causing you to demonstrate lazy behavior. Medication should help that when you get on the right one, and I agree with the previous poster that a counselor might help as well with thinking patterns that are not working for you. Good luck!

I have found this with me too... a couple of papers I have done I've had such low motivation it's only been the terror of failing that's caused me to swot like crazy for the 48hrs before finals.... Counselling and medication are a good idea if you need them. I sincerely recommend them if you are in a funk. Don't worry about the stigma. If you choose to do something short term to help yourself out, the unsympathetic family don't need to know. -- --

My family also thought I was a drama queen but they never put two and two together and mostly didn't know what my life contained. It's only been in the last few years when I have been treating family like, i don't know, acquaintances and not requiring any real connection that things have calmed down. I think there are a lot of people who don't like emotion and react badly to it, and don't want to connect. If your family is like that, just play games when you see them, have activities that involve laughing - and let time heal old wounds. -- --

Hope study goes okay. :)

It is hard to stay motivated when you are dealing with anxiety and depression. We just want to escape so we don't have to deal with it anymore. Try not to bash yourself too much by calling yourself irresponsible, your head just isn't in the right place right now but with medication in a month or two you could be feeling like a clear headed person. I hope things get better for you.

Thank you all so much guys! I am feeling better. I just have good friends to talk to.

I would suggest a good therapist to help clean out your mind and talk through it all. I might also suggest looking at your diet to see if there is anything amplifying your emotions. Many people have cured themselves of so many issues just by looking getting rid of poisonous foods.