Hey.
I know what it's like to feel alone.
If you want to talk, i am here

U came to the right place. U can always talk here

I am sorry to hear about the turmoil you are feeling right now. I definitely know what it feels like to be in an environment that is uncomfortable and disturbs your internal peace, especially when it is difficult to remove yourself from the situation. Would you happen to currently be in school or employed? Fortunately, we do live in a time where there is a lot of effort put into community services. Since you are unable to drive would there happen to be a recreational center, church or even a park nearby where you can clear your head and potentially meet other individuals.

@Servantheart_KingMentality
I don't have a job, and I'm homeschooled. So yeah, I'm pretty much locked in my house

I have to say this VERY carefully. In the US, there is child abuse AND child 'neglect'. Both are against the law. You describe a very delicate situation ... you ARE being neglected (she sleeps all day) and very possibly even abused (I don't have any details).

Child Protective Services WILL do something about that. The problem is, it is like letting a bull out of the pen. They get a report ... from school, neighbor, relative, or YOU and they will get on it like a chicken on a June bug. You MAY not like what they do ..... BUT ... BUT ..... BUT it is either that, or endure what you have.

It is a matter of how bad it is or will get. I am EXTREMELY sorry I don't have a better solution for you. Maybe someone else does.

Whatever you do ... go slow, and think about it first. You can 'live with it', or notify CPS somehow. If you notify ... PREPARE YOUR 'STORY' so they have the 'full real picture' .. and after you tell 'em, they WILL TAKE CHARGE .... so be ready.

Personally, from your description of the situation, I think that would be your best choice. This should not go on ... but when you make that call ... big, big things will happen. Give it a lot of thought.

Let us know if you need some more advice ... or anything else. 16 is VERY young to have to handle all this. We are very limited .. but will try to help you as much as we can.

When you post here on DS ..... STAY ANONYMOUS. You can 'tell the truth' or whatever but no real name, no SPECIFIC location, no email address, no phone number ... ANONYMOUS. OK? Good luck to you.

Usually there are groups that families that homeschool get together and do a science trip to a museum or something like that. I don't know much about it but do you ever get together with other kids who are homeschooled? Could you suggest it to your mom? Do you go to church or like any sports? Would your mom let you sign up for tennis classes, for example, you might meet friends with similar interests, and any physical activity at least s lifts our moods...

I'm sorry you are going through all that. I know a young teenager in a similar environment at home and I wish I could change it for her all the time. Being home schooled does limit your ability to be away from the tension. If there is anywhere you can get to by yourself like a library go there to get away as often as you can. I tell my young friend that no matter what her mother says none of the family drama is her fault. I try talking about it to her mom with limited results. I just keep telling her she will be grown up soon and can get away from all that for good. She avoids being at home at all costs and then her mother yells when she spends all her time at home in her room. You have to focus on you. There is nothing you can do to change the family tension because it is not your fault. Do you have a sympathetic family member you can visit on weekends?

It is a really difficult situation you are in and it pains me to know you are stuck in that environment. It is always good to have someone to talk to about things you are experiencing so I definitely understand the desire to find a friend. Friends can be a good source of support when things become difficult but ultimately this does not resolve the underlying concern. Although you may not necessarily be able to resolve the discord between your parents, perhaps you can make things better between your mother and yourself. Have you thought about sitting down with her and calmly and honestly tell her how her how the situation makes you feel? Catch her when she's in a good mood and ask her if you can have a heart-to-heart talk about some things that have been on your mind. This could potentially improve your current relationship but also provide you with an opportunity to request permission to get outside of the house occasionally and meet new people in places like the recreational center, church, library or park I previously mentioned how about other family members you can visit outside of the house as well?

In my prayers!

Honestly. I thought I was alone. That's literally everything I deal with.. I understand that so fucking much. I understand it beyond belief. I haven't felt calm in so damn long and it hurts. It's tiring. It's fucking painful. I swear I get it. I wish I didn't but I do. I hate that I understand this. That mean that you are going through hell and that means I'm going through hell. That mean these two beautiful human beings are being tourmented for NOTHING. And that's. It fair. So. I'm sorry this is happening. And you're not alone.

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=4594

A beautiful song that might help with tuning in and away from negative noise.

And...

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=G5_sbzSXs0E


An exercise that might help