I can relate, and totally feel your pain :( I'm the same, i dread work and when I'm there I'm so anxious and counting down the hours to go home and then when I'm home i feel even worse about myself. i used to take pride in my appearance to but now i hardly care or do that at all. anxiety is so hard, and i wish i could give u some strength but i just wanted you to know i feel the same and your not alone x

Jessie88 thanks for the comment I realize I need people in my life and other view points that is why I am here I do so appreciate you.

Aaron thanks I review the web site and found alot of logic there I will do some more reading.

Hi, I can def relate to a lot of things you said. I gained a lot of weight over the past 2 years and stopped trying on a daily basis to look decent. One of the things that made me gain perspective is that the people that matter most to me didn't care about that. They didn't care how I looked or that I gained weight, they liked me for me. So why didn't I? I started making small steps, ex: wearing makeup once or twice a week even if it was just mascara or trying to do my hair (curling or pinning up). I tried to see if I felt better on the days I wore makeup or looked better. It turned out that it did, I felt more confident which helped with my anxiety, especially social anxiety. I haven't done anything drastic, haven't lost the weight, but I do feel better about myself. I hope this helps a little!

thank you so much for the reply I think you are correct I need to start taking little step and maybe it would help me thanks so much

my brother passes away in feb 2016 on my birthday I can't get out of my mind he said my life hasn't been that good anyway I can't get that out of my mind lately my life hasn't been that good either and I am asking why do we go on.

You go on because killing yourself is a very big decision and until there's a need to make it (aliens coming at you to suck out your eyeballs and kill you slowly over a period of 3 weeks of intense agony) it's a better idea not to make that decision. It's not one you can undo.

Have you gone to the doctor? What steps have you taken?

You have to sit down, look in the mirror and say 'my job is not negotiable'. That means you have to show up, no matter how awful it is. I've done this and I know what I'm talking about. it's hell, it's awful, but you just have to go. Living in the streets is less fun than living in a house.

As to looking after yourself? I kind of struggle with that. I have recently developed a system after watching a lot of youtubes. I buy only white blouses and tops, and only black or grey skirts, I wear stockings and black shoes with a 2 inch heel and a black cardigan.

I have about 4 black cardigans. I have 4 white blouses so far, 4 black and 2 grey skirts.

I don't have to think about how I will dress for work, because I have a 'school uniform.' and this helps massively. As to makeup? I have to make myself remember: it's 5 minutes. it's 5 minutes. I have no excuse. I feel better in the day when it's on, even though I'd rather die than put it on.

I struggle with the shower, I struggle with cleaning my teeth, I struggle with putting my hair product in and I struggle with the makeup. But I make them non-negotiable. Don't ask myself if I'm allowed to skip today. I'm not. I'm not allowed to skip today. If I skip today, I will skip every single day. I know that. If I don't want to skip every single day, I can't skip today.