I started having panic attacks when I was 19 years-old. Now at 32, I have them completely under control and have never utilized medication to controll my symptoms and have on average, 1-3 horrible attacks per year. However, as of lately, I have noticed my anxiety has taken on a different form, it's rather hard to explain, however, the best way I can describe it is a feeling of foggy, lethargic, disconnect and it happens when I'm emotional and in a bad space. Yesterday a guy that I was really starting to like told me he met someone in his area. When we first met, we agreed to have a sexual relationship only, nonetheless, we never got to the physical part. We just seen each other a few times and texted each other almost everyday. Anyways, as soon as he told me he met someone else all the symptoms started and has not stopped, I keep hearing "it's just you're anxiety" when I start to have these symptoms and my rational mind knows this, however, I can't help be keep wondering if it's perhaps something else, something more serious. So, my question is, do anyone else experience anxiety with the same symptoms I mentioned?
My medicing isn't working anymore; like they all do after a month or two. I never can keep my head above water. It's been at least 15 years; when will I feel better? Everything keeps getting worse; my uncle dies of cancer, my grandma dies then my mom gets cancer. I'm scarred of dying alone but have no friends and never had a gf. I'm too broken to ever find a relationship. I never...
Shivering in my gararge and trying to cope with the much more painful and dangerous fucking now. Life is survivoring pain and bullshit.