I started having panic attacks when I was 19 years-old. Now at 32, I have them completely under control and have never utilized medication to controll my symptoms and have on average, 1-3 horrible attacks per year. However, as of lately, I have noticed my anxiety has taken on a different form, it's rather hard to explain, however, the best way I can describe it is a feeling of foggy, lethargic, disconnect and it happens when I'm emotional and in a bad space. Yesterday a guy that I was really starting to like told me he met someone in his area. When we first met, we agreed to have a sexual relationship only, nonetheless, we never got to the physical part. We just seen each other a few times and texted each other almost everyday. Anyways, as soon as he told me he met someone else all the symptoms started and has not stopped, I keep hearing "it's just you're anxiety" when I start to have these symptoms and my rational mind knows this, however, I can't help be keep wondering if it's perhaps something else, something more serious. So, my question is, do anyone else experience anxiety with the same symptoms I mentioned?
I am going home for vacation to see my mother who has never loved me, always referred to me as an mistake, abusive, and told me she wished I was never born. I am 45 years old now and this treatment and dislike for me has been going on since I was a child. And even worse since she found out I was gay by opening my mail in 1993. So, last Christmas I sat on the sofa after getting up in the...
Sometimes I wish I was dead. It’s really scary how when I think about it I feel somewhat at peace.