I felt the same way about meds. I truly had an anxiety when it come to taking any kind of meds. I finally got to a point where I really needed something. Zoloft has been a God send for me. I had a few side effects at first but after a little bit they went away. I still wont take just anything but I am not against it anymore.

I feel completely defective. I have to do something about this. It's interfering in my life. It's really hard to function.

You might want an immediate fix. Just a word of caution that meds can have complications and side affects down the road. I was on a depression med for 10 years and am now paying for it with other body symptoms 10 years later. Digestive, sleep disturbances, anxiety, all that. I would check out natural supplements and nutrition. When our bodies are not fed probably and hormonal imbalances can cause anxiety. I just found out my thyroid isn't functioning properly and that can cause anxiety. It also sounds like you are not in a healthy relationship and that may be adding to your stress. Best to your choice.

I agree with summer - dont use drug to cover up what is wrong with your life.

Over time anxiety drugs took away my sanity and health and it is taking years to recover

My relationship is essentially dead. It is adding to my stress and anxiety. I want my nightmare to end.

I have some meds. But they are only temporary. My doc wants me on them no longer than a month. This is to help me stabilize, right now. I will see her weekly for check ups. I have never been this bad.

Sometimes meds can be a good thing. Sometimes I have found that it allows me not to lose any more ground. Because when I am full of adrenaline it does cause you to be able to learn quickly.

I learn to even avoid more things.

Just remember to still work on your anxiety and panic and not rely on drugs to fix the problem because it doesn't. It only masks the problem.

I agree with that planning. I am on an anti depressant and it helps me cope. I still have to work daily on my anxiety but I don't feel so hopeless anymore. I can still function and feel things. I don't feel fake or anything like that. But mack you do have to remove the stressor if it toxic. It will keep bringing you down no matter what you do.

The hardest thing for me to do was to accept that I needed help with my anxiety.

I was very hesitant in the beginning, afraid doctors would tell me I was crazy and admit me somewhere. But they talked to me, helped me weigh the pros and cons, and answered all my questions and addressed all of my fears. In the end I had managed to muster up the courage to try medication and therapy.
I reasoned with myself (and with the help of doctors), that I would give it a try, and if I didn't like it, I didn't have to be on it/do anything.

I now realize that my decision to move forward and get treatment was the best decision I feel I've made in my life. I used small doses of medication alongside therapy to help me learn how to cope on my own.

I am now off of one major medication because of my work in therapy and the efforts I put forth outside. The other medication, xanax, I only take in emergencies/as needed.

Ultimately the decision will always be yours, just make sure you are making an informed decision based on your condition and that you have doctors that are willing to communicate with you all the way through your journey. It makes it that much easier to deal with the stress of it all.

Best of luck to you!

It's taken the edge off. Still didn't sleep. My goal is to take these to regain some of me back. So I can figure out what to do next. I know I need to let my man go. I know his addiction is the majority of my anxiety. if I could just turn my heart off, I would. Letting go is going to be hard. But loving an addict, may kill me.

My ex was not an addict but I was in the same position you were. I was addicted to him and when things weren't going well and it was certain they would have to come to an end soon, rather than letting go, I lived in denial and that only caused me more pain and anxiety on top of personal and family stress I was dealing with.

Eventually I had to accept his rejection for my own sanity. I suffered for a great deal. My anxiety was unbearable at times and landed me in the hospital. But I luckily had therapy sessions to help me cope. And you know what....eventually life got better.

My fav quote I share on here is "Sometimes we have to go right into the fire in order to find our true healing" - Jack Kornfield.

I would have never believed that before until I allowed myself to let go and feel the pain and emotions associated with my relationship and it's demise. I gathered the courage to speak my mind to him after we had broken up...and it felt like a weight lifted off

If you want to chat, I'm around. I can honestly say I have been where you are with anxiety and relationships.