Patricia, you are not alone. Anxiety doesn't just make us fearful, I have noticed it also makes us feel ashamed and guilty. We feel ashamed and guilty that were not good parents or that our kids have to see us this way. I completely understand. Remember, JUST DO THE BEST YOU CAN. Do the best you can as a parent. Do the best you can each day. One day at a time. Keep coming back here, and keep sharing.

Can you talk to your doctor. Maybe he can help.

Patricia, You Are Strong because you are raising children and coping with anxiety. I encourage you to ask for help from your friends or family. I agree to do the best you can for yourself and your children. Thank you for sharing

Another thing
if you are on medication ask your doctor if there are side effects /contraindications

It's just so hard like my kids are to young to understand what's going on so I try to hide it they already have to see me have seizures whenever I have them once in a while and I feel horrible because of that.... It's just so hard being a young single mother doing everything alone figuring out how we going to get this or that the things that we need all day long it's mommy this mommy that mommy he/she did this and that mommy look mommy mommy... it's so hard and all four of them are younger than eight... They keep messing the house up right after I clean it uuuuuugh this is an everyday thing between that's stuff and just love period it triggers alot of anxiety...

I can feel your stress and desperation through your words. It is hard raising kids alone but to have anxiety and seizures also is tough. It seems you’re seeing Drs often, what do they say in terms of a solution for your seizures? I would think that’s a serious condition that they must diagnose and treat. The anxiety may be triggering them. My heart and prayers go out to you. Is there a church nearby that can provide assistance with the kids. Perhaps camps or activities they can join that will give you some time to relax, knowing they are being watched by other adults. I would also suggest spending time in prayer. Ask the Lord for answers, strength and peace. If you have family as for help. It’s a lot to deal with alone. I’ll be praying with you.

Hello Patricia. Reaching out for help is a good first step. I commend you for doing everything you are doing despite your medical difficulties. I have 2 thoughts. Have you connected with a psychologist/psychiatrist? They are indispensable to a person dealing with anxiety and a psychiatric will also understand the effects of anti seizure medications along with a seizure disorder. CBD has shown promise in seizure disorders for children. If your seizures are not well controlled with mainstream medications it may be a consideration to look into CBD.

I would also consider downloading the app called, Insight Timer. Anytime you start getting thoughts that you know will trigger anxiety- do a meditation. You can figure out a few of different lengths that speak to you and bookmark them to find them quickly when needed. I recognize with kids this may be difficult but it’s something you may have to involve your kids with if you’re not able to find someone to help.

Put these 2 thoughts on a piece of paper and post them where you spend most time:
1. Thoughts are not facts.
2. You always have your breath. Take 3 deep slow breaths ( to bring yourself back to the moment that is here).

These instantly back you out of a rabbit hole you might be climbing into and then slow your heart rate, your mental pace and that’s half the battle with anxiety.

Wishing you peaceful thoughts. We’re here for you.
Hugs

Most people are vitamin deficient. A few vitamin deficiencies are magnesium, D3 and B12. There are others and they all cause anxiety issues.
I can NOT stress this enough. Most doctors do not check for deficiencies or do not do the correct tests. They only have 7 hours in medical school on nutrition and vitamins. They are paid to write prescriptions and never get to the root cause of any illness. They only know how to treat symptoms. Anxiety is curable in most cases.
I'm suspecting as a single mom, you might not be getting proper nutrition (I remember those days myself......eating on the run......skipping meals becuz of work and kids, etc.). It's easy to do. No judgement from me. Just an observation.

I would talk to your doctor and ask for a full panel work up for deficiencies. Seizures can also be caused by deficiencies. Again.Check with your doctor or see a homeopathic practioner......perhaps a comprehensive chiropractor that does naturopathic medicine?
If it is a deficiency, good quality supplements are a must (Walmart and Walgreen brands are synthetic and the body does not know what to do with them.....so they are eliminated). You can get good deals on Amazon.
Also, you need to give them a few weeks to kick in.....depending on how deficient you are and if you have gut issues, they also need to be addressed to help the supplements to be absorbed properly.
Drink plenty of fresh water as dyhydration also can causes anxiety. Plus it helps keep your kidneys working properly to flush toxins from your body.

Turn off ALL negative media.....it only keeps you in a loop of doom and depression.
Once you balance your magnesium or other deficiencies and eat better, your sleep will also improve.
Get moving!!!! Exercise of at least 20 minutes 4 times a week (daily is ideal, but you can work your way up) makes a big difference.
I don't go to the gym, but I put on motivational tapes and do 45 minutes of stretching. I walk 20 minutes 4 times a week when weather permits....sometimes I walk at the mall in the winter.

These are what worked for me. I have been clear of anxiety for the past 3 years after suffering for several years. I actually covered up my anxiety of 45 years with smoking. I quit 7 years ago and that is when all hell broke loose.
PPl don't realize how diet (gut health) is vital to your mental and physcial well being......but it really is!
I wish you and everyone here the best.

I am so sorry for your struggles. I know that they are real! My son and I both have dealt with anxiety on several occasions. My son ended taking medication and did some work with a counselor for a period of time. Have you been to see a counselor? Through counseling, my son learned some coping techniques that helped him when his anxiety was triggered.

For me, I read the Bible, prayed, listened to Christian music and surrounded myself with a good support group where I could talk with them about my troubles and they would pray with me. Can I pray for anything specific for you and your children? I pray for you now, asking that the Lord provide you with comfort, security in Him, restored health, a good group of friends, and returned joy. In Jesus Name. Amen.