Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Hello! I’m “new” here, meaning I first joined about 10 years ago when I first started having panic attacks and have been back from time to time ever since; the last being a few years ago.
Anyway, it’s currently 4:30 am where I live and I’m wide awake and laying here silently freaking out, so I was hoping that writing it down might help. And, obviously, any input from you reading this is most definitely appreciated. I apologize ahead of time if this is long-winded.
First, let me start by saying that I have major health anxiety. In general, doctors, doctors offices and tests freak me out. Last week I had a baseline mammogram done, and I’ve been freaking out over the results ever since. I’ve always been afraid to have a mammogram. I’m under the age of 40, but, without going into too much detail, it was ordered because I need the scans to bring to a breast surgeon for a non-serious issue.
So I had the mammogram on Thursday last week. The technician who did it said I would be called if there was an issue, and for me not to be alarmed if I did receive a call to come back in (for another mammogram or ultrasound) since it was my first one and they had nothing to compare it to see any changes.
As of yesterday I have not received a call from the office, however, when I came home from work yesterday, there was a postcard in my mailbox telling me to call the office. I know they send those when they can’t get ahold of someone over the phone, but they didn’t try to call because the “we were unable to reach you” part of the note was crossed out with black marker.
I got the mail after work yesterday, which was after their office hours, so I’ve been worried sick ever since. I keep trying to tell myself that if it was something serious that they would’ve attempted to call me instead of sending a postcard that could’ve gotten lost in the mail. I’m hoping that it’s just in reference to the scans that I will have to pick up to bring to the surgeon. But here I am, with my mind racing, unable to sleep.
Thank you so much for reading.
I can understand your anxiety, though. I'm sure if it were me in your shoes, I would be riddled with anxiety and fighting myself all night.
As it is, I just had a very unpleasant dream and I'm up, fighting my racing mind and knowing I'm not going to be able to get back to sleep for a while.
I wish I could make you feel better, but just try to remember that it will be over as soon as you can call and get your answers.
You mirror my anxiety. I keep waking up in the wee hours of the morning with my mind racing over very thing there's to worry about. I'm trying to realize I only have so much control over things and do my very best to turn things over to a higher power. I think the physical symptoms of anxiety and panic are the worst. At those early hours are when I need to hear a supportive voice. I understand. You are not alone. Wishing you ease and peace.
Please let us know! We're rooting for you to conquer your fears!
Thank you for that. It helps to hear from others who have gone through a similar situation. Living in fear is the absolute worst. I am going to make an effort to try to calm down. Hugs to you!