Hi all, I haven't posted in a while, but my anxiety is still here and I needed some feedback if anyone had time. Basically my story goes: I've always had anxiety but it's been mild and manageable. In April of this year something happened that threw me off and I haven't been the same since. I don't know if it was stress or stuff going on in life ,but whatever it was I can't seem to get back to normal.

I'm seeing a therapist now who is supposed to be doing therapy with CBT, but I'm not sure if we're doing CBT yet. We've had 3 sessions. But right now, I'm so confused. I feel like my symptoms aren't just anxiety. I know I suffer from it, but even times when I feel calm I still can't feel normal. I really want to get my head scanned to see if anything in my brain is wrong. The reason I think this is because I can't seem to hold a conversation or think the way I used to. I have 2 children 3 years old and under, and I watch videos of how I used to interact with them and I feel like I don't engage near as much, and just can't think of stuff to say anymore. I don't feel like I'm as mentally active as I once was and no matter how hard I try and tell myself to stay in the game, I'm always finding myself being quiet and not really hearing what they are saying. I'm always just repeating the phrases I normally say like 'good job' and 'yah I see that' etc etc. I used to be so involved and creative with things to do and say and I can't get back to that.

And it's not just with my kids it's with everything. I can't focus or concentrate long enough to finish my sentence without forgetting what I was saying or forgetting a word I'm thinking of. I just feel so out of it and can't seem to get back to the normal me. I do all the stuff that's supposed to help--vitamins, exercise, therapy. I admit I do stay up pretty late (1-2am sometimes) and wake up mid morning, but I've always been a night owl and never had problems. So I am close to making an appt with my doc to rule out any brain/mind problems (I don't know if they can see if something's wrong with the mind? lol), but at least I wouldn't be thinking about that part of it anymore. But also, don't EKG's and brain scans have radiation? I don't want to be exposed to that either!