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Had a good day, but there were times to ? it

rhwhitmore2001
rhwhitmore2001

At different times today I was really anxious and uneasy, but didn't say anything and tried to act as though all was ok when it wasn't. One major moment was when I was helping a friend load up our truck with stuff that we are taking to the dumpster here and I was holding the key for the truck and the alarm went off and I couldn't figure out how to stop the alarm or shut it off. Then I remembered what my fiance told me about the key in the keyphab. So, I finally got the alarm shut off 10 or 15 minutes later. Other times were when my friends daughter brought her two kids over and I offered to watch one or both of them while she went to workout at the YMCA right next door to us practically. I was worried something was going to happen while she was gone, but I had confidence in myself as a mother that I would be able to handle it if it did. Nothing happened and the kids played wonderfully together for almost 2 hours. The thrid thing that kind had me anxious is the moment my fiance got home and I wasn't sure what kind of mood he was in. That's usually what I worry about anyways more and more. I just don't know how to stop it or keep myself calmer. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that he and I have not been really close for a long time and I don't trust his moods much anymore. I'm afraid he'll go off at the slightest thing. That bothers me a lot. I have so much to deal with too and he doesn't get that or take it into consideration much or I don't think he does.


There's also the fact I'm trying to deal with how my youngest son is and what he's doing too. Its not good and I'm constantly worried I'm going to get a phone call that he's been shot or worse. If he ended up in jail, I'd be more than relieved I'm sure because he's gone a couple of times and it helped me be more calmer for a few days. Then I also have my youngest daughter to worry about as well with her ADHD and other behaviors, too. Trying to please everyone is surely taking a toll on me and my issues for sure. I have PTSD, depression and Anxiety and the episodes I have with all of those come and go all the time. Its so hard to control sometimes that I wish I had medication for them again. Mainly for the depression and anxiety. My sleep patterns are ok except I stay up a little too late most nights. I know there's home remedies for some things, but I don't seem to have the time or make the time for them all the time, just when its really bad I guess. Does anyone else know what else I can do to help some of my issues/symptoms? I'd appreciate it. Thanks.

rhwhitmore2001
rhwhitmore2001
lovingladyo, thank you for your kind words and thoughts as well as feedback/reply. I believe the things you say about God and Jesus, but its those that don't see it the same way (like my fiance does). He is or seems to not listen much to my words. He is more of a non verbal communicater when it comes to others peoples communicationn styles and I've expressed to him that I'm a verbal communicator more then a non verbal one. He goes by what my body language says and not my my words more than that. I don't feel like he's my protecctor much in that regard/respect either. He has a lot of trust issues and a lot of the time isn't willing to risk anymore of himself, if that makes sense. I'm just trying to focus on myself more after we fight/argue and he takes it all wrong. Its like a broken record when I have to tell him again and again that I'm more verbal and want to talk about things instead. He just doesn't understand or comprehend that since he's more of an introvert and not very emotionally intelligent like I am. I empathize with people all the time, even when I don't trust them. He can't or won't allow himself to do that or doesn't know how to. Thank you again though for your thoughts and prayers either way.
rhwhitmore2001
rhwhitmore2001
That's just it, I'm not planning to marry him now or ever really til things change for the better more steadily and consistently and that may never happen anyways, so, I'm pretty sure its not going to happen at all. We've been engaged for 8 years almost 9 and we have only talked about it and that's as far as its gotten. I'm comfortable with just being engaged and committed. I just don't want to 'let go' for good and start over with someone else if it comes down to it. I'd rather die honestly cause I've just put too much into this one, time wise and energy wise. Plus, my health is slowly declining and I have no income or insurance at the moment. I just want and need the stability. I do not want to fight over our child either, been there done that already once with my oldest son and that tore me apart in many ways. I don't fight well cause I feel its a waste of precious time and energy. I'm content for the most part, I just want to love and be loved. He loves me in his own way, but its not what I know I deserve. I just am times of fighting for what I deserve so I'm settling for whatever I can get at this point. I hope you see what I mean and what I'm talking about.