Take the time to grieve for the loss of the good moments.

Write in a private journal to work through the loss of the family due to the divorce. Then figure out if you are going to be able to get in touch with the people who you care about and move forward.

Take walks. Stay busy. Do things.

Welcome to the anxiety board at DS.

Ty for listening

Being alone right now is a good thing for you. Your mind and emotions need a break. You need this time to grieve, as @Mid said. And to find out who YOU are and what you really want in life. What are your dreams, goals, hobbies, what things do you enjoy. Going from one relationship to the next is draining to your emotions and feelings. This is a good thing... being on a break from a relationship.

And you won't be alone forever, so now you have this precious time to get to know the most important person - yourself.

Think about it this way... we are all alone at many points in our lives. You were alone before you met this woman, alone before you met your ex wife... You are going to be okay!

You don't sound like a "loser at 47". I'd love to go back to being only 47 again :) You are young, you have so much life to live. Just take it one day at a time. Taking care of YOU for a change and not having to "deal" with someone else right now. You will soon find that to be a relief.

That was powerful ty vm

Why does it say that you are 13?? I would agree with Mid. A journal is a good thing.

But GirlinCalif is going deep. And it all makes so much scence. (Of course I know that it is misspelled.)

Sweetie, never EVER think of you as a loser. Oh, 47 again? I would make the best of it...as I think I did.

And maybe give yourself a break from relationships other than girl friends.

I do not think you are a loser but you have made a bad choice to leave everything behind and letting your family slip away. When someone is abusive tell the teacher. In your case the teacher is someone else that know you both as a couple. You could confront her about it. God bless on everything. You can make things work, try to do what is right and not let things go, unless there is no other options.

Look at it this way, now you have NOTHING holding you back! Time to focus on you! I am in my late 30’s and had been in terrible relationships for what seems like forever. But now, seems like a breath of fresh air. It won’t happen over night, but keep your head up!