Well up until last Saturday I was learing to deal with my anxiety some what. Last Saturday my step daughter and her two daughters 4 and 1 1/2 years old came to stay with us. They are staying with us till we go to court tomorrow. The judge may be taking her children from her for the third time in a year. Children services has asked my husband and I to take the two girls. This week has been the week from hell with all of them. My step daughter is nothing but a tramp and no good mother. She has been with this guy everyday since she has been staying with us. She leaves early in the morning and dont come home till late. Well last night she didnt come home at all. I am so stressed out and have started crying again. I dont think I can handle raising two little kids. My husband says he understands but wants to take kids. He says that if it is to much or me then we wont but I am afraid that he will leave me later for not taking the kids. I have thought of ending my marriage because of this and telling him to raise the girls since they are his blood and I know deep down he wants to. His daughter has tried to break me and my husband up since we first got together. I feel like she is getting what she wants now. I found a letter she wrote to her boyfriend where she was talking about them having a baby. It talks in the letter that they are having sex everyday just so she can get pregnant. She is stupid!! She dont take care of the two she already has. She wont work. She gets food stamps and medical coverage through our welfare department. They wont give her cash assistance because she has to try to get a job and work for it. She wont do that. She has no way to pay her rent that is 17 dollars a month, her electric which is 20 dollars a month or buy diapers for the littlest child she has now. She bums off of other people to get diapers. She has had an eviction notice for not paying her rent and got help through some agency paying it so they wouldnt be homeless and also got help from some agency getting her electric back on when it got shut off a month ago. I am so sick of the system helping these girls who choose to do this. They are able to work but choose not to and just sit on the butts and have babies so they can get free money. What about people who are really sick and need help??? or the elderly who cant afford to get their medicines or eat???? It really makes me sick. I am so upset today because of this. I dont know what is going to happen with my marriage because of all this. I love my husband so much and I know he loves me. How can I ask him to let his grandchildren go to foster care? But on the other hand how can he expect me to take care of them when I am not able to? Just wanted to vent and see if anyone elses has went through something like this and might be able to help me understand.
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