Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I feel like I'm not allowed to be happy. Over the last few years every time something good happened something really bad has happened. And now no matter what I tell myself I believe it's going to always be like this.
Right now everything actually seems ok and I am TERRIFIED. I think I am literally scared of happiness. I actually feel myself going numb in happy situations so I don't feel happy. It's like I have trained my body not to feel good just to make sure I'm not going to come crashing back when the next bad thing happens. Or to make sure nothing else bad happens. Happiness can't be ruined if you can't feel it.
Most of the time I feel numb the rest of the time I feel overwhelmed by emotion because feelings of happiness, contentment (anything positive) freak me out so much.
Has anyone else felt like this?
Right now everything actually seems ok and I am TERRIFIED. I think I am literally scared of happiness. I actually feel myself going numb in happy situations so I don't feel happy. It's like I have trained my body not to feel good just to make sure I'm not going to come crashing back when the next bad thing happens. Or to make sure nothing else bad happens. Happiness can't be ruined if you can't feel it.
Most of the time I feel numb the rest of the time I feel overwhelmed by emotion because feelings of happiness, contentment (anything positive) freak me out so much.
Has anyone else felt like this?
If you look at it as "good" and "bad" then yes, bad and good things will happen. That is life, but how you choose to look at it is entirely up to you. If you see things as bad, then it is. Let's say you lose your job. The natural feeling is bad, right? Now fast forward to a few months or years ahead and you look back and it was the best thing that's ever happened to you. You can choose to look at as "I'm a loser, I lost my job." or "I may not know what the future holds, but this may be a life lesson I can learn from" or "this is life. Life is never constant. I feel badly at this moment, but nothing last forever."
The only constant is change. And you, my friend, are apart of life. You can look at it as good and bad things happen or you can look at it as if life happening.
When we're trapped in our thoughts we forget that we are just a small speck in the universe among billions of stars. You can begin to heal by claiming your star that is ever changing and CHOOSE to show up with optimism or fear.
I know it's hard to think that you have a choice in your life, but you really are the creator of your heaven or hell on earth. Choose to see the clear path. Life happens if you choose or sh*t happens. It's your choice. You don't control what is going to happen no matter how happy you become :)