No it's not. I have wished I had a different family many times. Can you talk to a friend, relative, or school counselor?

No I’m never really opened up to anyone before

It might help if you could at least talk about it and you might get some
ideas that can help you cope with your family. Someone else's perspective
on the situation could also be helpful.

Know that you are not alone with those thoughts. The people closest to us often disappoint us the most. It was brave for you to post on this forum. Have you considered talking to your family about what is bothering you? That takes courage also. I hope that you can work out your issues.

Thank you and no I’ve tried talking but when I do everything comes out wrong and they don’t understand me

Try writing down what you want to say until you think it makes
sence to your family. Then read it to them or give it to them to read. Say you have problems getting your point across when you talk. So you wrote your
thoughts out.

No that's not a bad feeling at all. I use to wish when I was a kid that someone else would adopt me. So been there!

I'll tell you this. We don't choose our biological families. But we can choose what we what to learn, absorb, and adopt as our own belief systems from them.

If you are in a dysfunctional or abusive home...and it's miserable...and you are underage...know that when you become of age...you can move out and start your own life and create a safe environment for yourself.

You can pick and choose who you want to be in your circle...good friends, teachers, mentors, loving uncles and aunts....doesn't have to blood related. Surround yourself with healthy individuals and if they aren't...you can let them go.

My brother often says to me..."Don't have a hive mentality." I always took that as...just because you are with other bees doesn't mean you have to act like one. You can think for yourself...and get your mind right. Nobody controls that.

Never think you are stuck there. You may physically stuck there...but your mind is all you.

Sending you light and love...don't lose hope...things can and will get better.

You're normal.

It’s not wrong to feel that way, I do too very often. My relationship with my dad is awful. Sorry you’re feeling that way

While I'm wishing, can I be smart, beautiful and rich, too?

Sigh. . .

Reality is just that confusing time between naps.

I feel like this is a completely normal thing, I'm lucky enough to have a very kind and loving family and I often have the same sort of thoughts. I feel very distant to them despite the love and care they've given me and I often feel there isn't an easy way to bridge that gap. I feel friends are very vital for the reasons you listed, being able to actually choose them makes the relationships much more impactful than even what family can provide oftentimes. I wish you the best.