Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
This past week my daughter and two young grand boys came for a visit, since my daughter's husband was out of town. They live 5o miles from us, so I do see them fairly often, but this visit was more less a going to be a summer fun event that we planned in advance. I took off a few days work and my husband got the kiddy pool and trampoline all ready...
Well, first off I had a very stressful past month at work, and last Sat. before they even came I started with severe anxiety, uneasiness and racing thoughts. Then, my daughter had to
They did arrive and all was well, but I was uneasy, anxious, and agitated their entire visit except for a brief periods of feeling "normal." We had a cook out, the boys played out side, we have lots of land my husband and I walked them around paths in a wagon, they picked fresh veggies from our garden, they played with their trucks in the dirt, swam jumped on the trampoline, and went of for ice-cream My daughter and I shopped for Max's 2 birthday party decorations, my daughter met up with some of her old girlfriends for dinner. My husband daughter and I even watched a funny movie, "Crazy Stupid Love.." I enjoyed that. I suppose the important thing is, my two little grand boys had fun, Chelsea had fun, my husband had fun, but me, I felt on the most part constant turmoil.
Then yesterday, their last day, I had to get up, go to court representing a teen that lives in the residential home I work at, then work from 8 am to midnight shift, 16 hours straight to make up the day I requested off. For some odd reason, I was not all that anxious at my stressful job yesterday, does that make sense?
Now today, I am up, feeling REALLY depressed which is kind of a new feeling for me. I feel like I miss my grand boys and daughter so much. In addition I feel I missed out on our planned visit, I have regrets, and keep crying....
I appear to be sufferings also from disassociation, maybe from being overtired. It does not feel like a "normal" day. Like I am in a dream sort of. Or the feeling I have had in the past after a holiday, the let down feeling.
Making matters worse I have to work from 4 though midnight today, taking trouble teens to a Bison Baseball game miles away. That is something that I would not like to do, even if I was not feeling anxious..
I am hopelessly trying to get back on track, but just to tangled up in my thought's emotions and anxieties to do so. When I get this way, my greatest fear is I will never feel "normal" again. But, hey I am 56 having this on and of since my teens, don't you think I would know by now it goes away?
I take no meds for my anxiety, through the years I just wait for it to pass, it usually does. I have taken Xanax at times, not much relief though when I am in this state of mind. Therapy ed out, my therapist says, I suffer from anxiety, she encourages me to take medications.
Any input is welcomed. Thanks for reading.
Pattylyn
Well, first off I had a very stressful past month at work, and last Sat. before they even came I started with severe anxiety, uneasiness and racing thoughts. Then, my daughter had to
They did arrive and all was well, but I was uneasy, anxious, and agitated their entire visit except for a brief periods of feeling "normal." We had a cook out, the boys played out side, we have lots of land my husband and I walked them around paths in a wagon, they picked fresh veggies from our garden, they played with their trucks in the dirt, swam jumped on the trampoline, and went of for ice-cream My daughter and I shopped for Max's 2 birthday party decorations, my daughter met up with some of her old girlfriends for dinner. My husband daughter and I even watched a funny movie, "Crazy Stupid Love.." I enjoyed that. I suppose the important thing is, my two little grand boys had fun, Chelsea had fun, my husband had fun, but me, I felt on the most part constant turmoil.
Then yesterday, their last day, I had to get up, go to court representing a teen that lives in the residential home I work at, then work from 8 am to midnight shift, 16 hours straight to make up the day I requested off. For some odd reason, I was not all that anxious at my stressful job yesterday, does that make sense?
Now today, I am up, feeling REALLY depressed which is kind of a new feeling for me. I feel like I miss my grand boys and daughter so much. In addition I feel I missed out on our planned visit, I have regrets, and keep crying....
I appear to be sufferings also from disassociation, maybe from being overtired. It does not feel like a "normal" day. Like I am in a dream sort of. Or the feeling I have had in the past after a holiday, the let down feeling.
Making matters worse I have to work from 4 though midnight today, taking trouble teens to a Bison Baseball game miles away. That is something that I would not like to do, even if I was not feeling anxious..
I am hopelessly trying to get back on track, but just to tangled up in my thought's emotions and anxieties to do so. When I get this way, my greatest fear is I will never feel "normal" again. But, hey I am 56 having this on and of since my teens, don't you think I would know by now it goes away?
I take no meds for my anxiety, through the years I just wait for it to pass, it usually does. I have taken Xanax at times, not much relief though when I am in this state of mind. Therapy ed out, my therapist says, I suffer from anxiety, she encourages me to take medications.
Any input is welcomed. Thanks for reading.
Pattylyn
I am on a regular routine of Klonopin and then 1 mg of xanax as needed, but that seems to be quiet often as of late, but then again I have ALOT going on in my life at the present time!
You are so much stronger than you think? I can't or am afraid of even trying to work with my anxiety or panic attacks. You should be proud, but I do understand how it goes with anxiety too! Can be there one minute or one day and then not show up for a month or can haunt you daily for months at a time!
Just take it one step at a time and you will do fine! I look up to you with this, I really do. I mean I feel your pain and totally get it, but man you work all those long hours with anxiety, you are so much stronger than I am!
Hang in there and be proud that you are one of the few that can get through this without meds. I am here if you ever need a shoulder......xxxxx
First off, Dazedance, it was nice of you to praise my ability to carry on with anxiety with out meds. However if a medication is out there that would calm the turmoil I experience carrying on with this severe anxiety, it might be considered a "stupid" choice for me not to take a medication. Long ago I took an antidepressant but it not appear to help very much with my anxiety.
Also, I might have this anxiety for a couple of days then puff it might be gone for several months. So my family dr of several years states the meds might cause me more upset, then the disorder itself. Of curse other dr.s have disagreed with him. So, needless to say, I also obsess to much too about what is wrong with me, should I take meds or not. And so on.
I truly struggle to carry on when I feel this way! I pace, clean, sort, iron clothes, write, and post here. I am not able to sit or concentrate long and I don't eat much.
My daily routine turns into a minute by minute day, instead of a nicely flowing day of "normal" if you understand what I mean. By night time I am so gosh darn exhausted I do fall asleep from all the activities that I did from one thing to another with out a brake. It is just a terrible agitation. But, I wake up with a doomed feeling in the pit of my tummy the next day, and start all over again. Like a mouse on a wheel.
As far as work, it is a busy job too, since I am a coach for troubled teens who reside in a residential home. These teens have many emotional disturbances, are very hostile at times, but all in all, they keep me hopping, which distracts me from my agitation. I also clean and sort at work, since it a huge residential home. (chuckle) The job itself, probably is not a good fit for me, because there are long shifts, different shifts, and always emotional upsets, restraints, police involvement, and it is a large agency, meaning many bossy management issues, ongoing meetings, trainings and so on. I also sub for our schools though, as a secretary and teacher's assistant, so I could just do that during the school year. But the inconsistency and not knowing from day to day where I am going to work, tends to not be good for me either. Otherwise a "normal" office job is not easy to come by where I live in a small town, unless I would want to travel into the city. Also, I am 56. I have been caring for my elderly parents the past years, and subbing. My mom and dad passed away. My mom just a year ago, so now I am working again. Also, my house has been in renovation, my kitchen is tourn abort completely, and has been for a year and a half and my husband procrastinates. So my home is kind of out of sorts too.
But even so, I have had this weird type of disorder on and off since I have been 18 years old, and now I am 56, so I don't' contribute it my anxiety/depression to environmental issues. But I had many things going on in my teens to certainly start up anxiety and depression, so with that said who knows. Sorry to rattle on here. I always try to figure it all out.
WyndWytch, thanks for the natural treatment suggestion, I will certainly look into it. It does appear that one trigger is, being overtired then going out and about on a day off with out a clear cut plan. It starts when driving at times. I get a overwhelming nervousness, then I feel like I can't drive. I usually go back home, calm a bit but the aftermath of agitation lingers. Sometimes for just a day, sometimes weeks...I wonder why?
Pattylyn