Anxiety Support Group
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Can I enjoy life?
Ive put myself into what I feel is an awful situation that will not be resolved for several years or longer. I have suffered for 20+ years with anxiety/depression but never as bad as the last 4 months. I recently started Prozac and therapy (couple of weeks). My anxiety seems to be less but my depression seems worse. Everyday I wakeup to a seemingly endless supply of sadness. I feel this empty sad hopeless feeling would go away if my situation was resolvedbut I can not wait for years.
I have a loving girlfriend, supportive family/friends, a decent jobwhy am I so sad when I have a good life? I guess it doesnt matter what causes the sadnessit hurts just as bad no matter the reason. Im so mad at myself for everything I just want to scream! Every day feels like the lastan empty joyless existence. God I just want to live again! I want to enjoy life and look forward to upcoming events! I want weekends to be special again and vacations to matter! I want to see the beauty in life and just be at peace with myself!
When I was young I so looked forward to trips with my friends! We had as much enjoyment months before the trip just talking about it as we did on the trip itself! I felt there was so much fun ahead and looked forward to those trips for months and months! I used to look forward to Friday nights out and Saturday nights out! I would be happy the whole week just thinking about the weekend! Now I feel nothing. Nothing to look forward to but work and paying bills.
I made the mistake of trying to plan for the future. I thought I had it all figured out but I was wrong. No one else seems to think I made the biggest mistake of my lifebut I do. Do I beat myself up for the next several years and live in this hopeless state of self pity? God have mercy on us allthis is not the life intended!
My depression is selfishit takes joy from my loved onesit puts stress on relationships.I need something to get me through until my situation can be resolved but what? Medicine and therapy are a good start and I thank God I made that decision but ultimately something inside my head needs to click!
What can I do to get passed my self anger? How can I get back the spark of excitement I had so long ago? My girlfriend and friends plan weekends, vacations yet I have no excitement or joy. That spark of looking forward to life is gone right now..AND I WANT IT BACK! God please bring it back.it will come back some dayuntil then what do I do?
Ive put myself into what I feel is an awful situation that will not be resolved for several years or longer. I have suffered for 20+ years with anxiety/depression but never as bad as the last 4 months. I recently started Prozac and therapy (couple of weeks). My anxiety seems to be less but my depression seems worse. Everyday I wakeup to a seemingly endless supply of sadness. I feel this empty sad hopeless feeling would go away if my situation was resolvedbut I can not wait for years.
I have a loving girlfriend, supportive family/friends, a decent jobwhy am I so sad when I have a good life? I guess it doesnt matter what causes the sadnessit hurts just as bad no matter the reason. Im so mad at myself for everything I just want to scream! Every day feels like the lastan empty joyless existence. God I just want to live again! I want to enjoy life and look forward to upcoming events! I want weekends to be special again and vacations to matter! I want to see the beauty in life and just be at peace with myself!
When I was young I so looked forward to trips with my friends! We had as much enjoyment months before the trip just talking about it as we did on the trip itself! I felt there was so much fun ahead and looked forward to those trips for months and months! I used to look forward to Friday nights out and Saturday nights out! I would be happy the whole week just thinking about the weekend! Now I feel nothing. Nothing to look forward to but work and paying bills.
I made the mistake of trying to plan for the future. I thought I had it all figured out but I was wrong. No one else seems to think I made the biggest mistake of my lifebut I do. Do I beat myself up for the next several years and live in this hopeless state of self pity? God have mercy on us allthis is not the life intended!
My depression is selfishit takes joy from my loved onesit puts stress on relationships.I need something to get me through until my situation can be resolved but what? Medicine and therapy are a good start and I thank God I made that decision but ultimately something inside my head needs to click!
What can I do to get passed my self anger? How can I get back the spark of excitement I had so long ago? My girlfriend and friends plan weekends, vacations yet I have no excitement or joy. That spark of looking forward to life is gone right now..AND I WANT IT BACK! God please bring it back.it will come back some dayuntil then what do I do?
Sandi
The mistakes we've all made are supposed to teach us, not haunt us for the rest of our days. You are going to have to forgive yourself for the past and start looking forward to the future.
I think the fact that you are aware of what you're missing is a positive sign. This tells me that you haven't given up hope and that means that you will get out of this hole.
Sometimes when we are standing between two mountains, it's hard to look up the daunting task ahead and imagine that we can pull ourselves out from that valley. But, it can happen- it happens everyday. Just keep reminding yourself that you just have to work your way over that mountain and your wonderful appreciative life is waiting to begin all over again on the other side.
One great thing you have going for you is a fight inside you. Plus all your awesome friends at DS!!! Good luck friend, keep us posted on how the therapy stuff goes. HUGS!