Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Seems my plight continues to dwindle, the one person I have wanted for some time and loved does not want nor love me, I have been one that definitely wasn't perfect, but wants to correct all I can, and has had these areas to work on always brought to my attention, some I think were to slow worked on some I guess I didn't embrace to change, I always thought love would prevail, and maybe it does, as I know maybe this was meant for me to be loved again, I have starved for attention so long, not just attention though, affection and loving attention., you know, the feeling of being wanted, cherished, treasured, and wanted to give that right back to the one you love, to wait everyday to talk to them as many times as possible on the phone, the sound of there voice calming you so much, and to hear the beautiful words I love you spoken so freely and meant so deeply, to get lost in her eyes, to forget to breathe, to feel energy just from a touch.
This is the person I am, the way I felt about her, and the love I have just hanging out there, wanting to be wanted this way, is a hard thing to move on, when you love someone so much, and were determined this was it for a lifetime.
I don't really go to the life not worth living areas, my kids certainly are worth a ton, and need me, but to say I am numb is an understatement, I have no focus, direction, or even desire in daily routines, work is lethargic for me, thankful I have a very flexible job, peers, and schedule.
I feel such an urgency to be loved, I haven't been for a long time, I don't mean just a sex thing, I haven't been held by someone that loves me in years, and have pretended I have been, when you awake from this, knowing they were trying to love you and didn't, it just hurts badly.
This is the person I am, the way I felt about her, and the love I have just hanging out there, wanting to be wanted this way, is a hard thing to move on, when you love someone so much, and were determined this was it for a lifetime.
I don't really go to the life not worth living areas, my kids certainly are worth a ton, and need me, but to say I am numb is an understatement, I have no focus, direction, or even desire in daily routines, work is lethargic for me, thankful I have a very flexible job, peers, and schedule.
I feel such an urgency to be loved, I haven't been for a long time, I don't mean just a sex thing, I haven't been held by someone that loves me in years, and have pretended I have been, when you awake from this, knowing they were trying to love you and didn't, it just hurts badly.
It is clear that u have heart. Your epic Oz search is over. U have so much compassion and feeling and depth to your soul. U still have a belief in love even after all the nastiness you have been thru. I know it is an exceptionally difficult road to travel. The good (and the sad) news is so many of us ahead of you have worn down the path so that you at least know where you are headed and we will attempt to help you along the way in whatever way we can. Love and hugs to you my friend. You know you can message me whenever you need
Whenever I've been hurt in relationships and I have been-a lot-it takes time more than anything else. I try to let myself grieve the loss and then look at the circumstances carefully, try to find the lesson.
My personal belief is that is what this world is about-a series of life lessons. It's very difficult to see it that way when you are yearning for love and honest companionship. That's a powerful need and I absolutely understand it.
I hope that you are able to remember that this is only another step towards the person that you are meant to be with.
Take care,
Elbie