Anxiety Support Group

Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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Anxiety - Where it all started.

blessed19
blessed19
Well I am up cant sleep and thought I would share my story on how my anxiety started. Maybe someone out there can relate. Well I was with this guy for three years who I was so much in love with and he was emotionally abusive pretty much the hole time we were together.He brought my self esteem so low that I felt weak he made me feel as if I was beneath him.We ended up having a baby together. Even while I was pregnant this SHIT HEAD was still abusive and stressed me out so bad that I could have lost the baby. He basically told me fuck you and the baby I have my son already (he has a child from a previous relationship)! This is someone who you have been with for three years telling you some shit like that. Anyway he was not having this he didnt talk to me for months and finally he came around He said that if I am going to be there for my son you will be my possession he wanted to control my every move I couldnt talk to any guys or he threatned to "put me under the dirt" but he could fuck every girl in sight. Well obviously I had to let him go I was scared but I changed my number and said fuck it I not going to deal with this bullshit. I got out safe and I thank god everyday because he is crazy and some girls dont make it out in time. Anyway this is when my anxiety started my depression worsened. I feel like why would you threatn to kill the mother of your child. I took alot from him for three years and I feel this is what has triggered my anxiety and depression. Some days I wake up and cry for no reason. I have very bad shortness of breath, tingling, weakness, heart palpatations, chest tightness, body aches,dizziness, fear of death, etc..... I am only 23 years old I just want to enjoy my life and be a good mother and right now I am not at that point yet. I have really bad insomnia no sleep meds will work because my symptoms are so bad that I feel like I am going to die at any second. I feel like I will die in my sleep. Some nights I wake up in a panic and cant breath VERY SCARY!!!! I have been to the ER FOUR times and nothing is wrong. Blood work was done EKG,CT scan of head and chest and everything was normal. I never knew stress could cause this its scary but Im glad that im not the only one going through it I dont feel alone anymore. The only thing that makes me smile is when i see my baby smile at me it lets me kno everything will be alright.
DogCrazy
DogCrazy
Im sorry you have had to go through this, you are better off without him.
your anxiety acting up maybe fear of living alone now or him finding you.
I would reccomend a councillor and an abused womens group, it might help you with these issues and gain some self confidence cutting down on your anxiety.
Im not sleeping at the momment iether and im on sleep meds too, so i know it stinks.
Big Hugs!
deleted_user
deleted_user
You have been through a horrible time but got out of it ok and have your baby to focus on now. I get all the symptoms you get and the heart ones and dizzyness i think are scariest and at times think im gonna die and leave my children alone. I find that my 2 children keep me going and even when i feel awful and want to curl up, i have to carry on for them. I would recommend getting outside help from a councellor or someone as it is helping me. Keep thinking you have a nice life ahead of you with your child and all the nice things that come with children. I know it is really hard when you feel bad but remember there is nothing serious wrong with you cos you have been checked and you can, with help, learn to overcome anxiety. Good luck. Hugs
Lyndsey x
blessed19
blessed19
Thank you!!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I was in the same kind of relasionship as you for many, many years.That is what brought out my bipolar and anxiety.The only thing that made me survive were my 3 beautiful children with this asshole.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I was in the same kind of relasionship as you for many, many years.That is what brought out my bipolar and anxiety.The only thing that made me survive were my 3 beautiful children with this asshole.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm so sorry you are going through such a tough time. And props to you for being strong enough to get out of such a bad situation!!! I try to think of what triggered my anxiety all the time. I have gone through a few years of one bad thing after another, and I feel like I finally just reached my mental breaking point. I'm just trying to figure out how to find my old care free self again, or at least a happy medium. Best wishes to you! Stay strong!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I understand where you are coming from! I am 31 now, but I had the some thing happen to me at exactly your age! It was a difficult time and Paxil helped to get me through it at that time. I also saw a therapist and a womens support group, I didn't like to talk in a group but I met one on one with advocates. I just want you to know that what you are feeling is OK! I know it doesnt feel like it but it is your body's way of dealing with this intense stress! I think that you may find out what is involved with triggering this as well as the solutions to solving it by seeing a therapist or someone at your local womens shelter. (they have great resources) I feel for you...