Well this is a long story and I hope someone can give me positive feedback.The first time I ever had a panic attack was when I was 15 but that was when I smoked weed for the first time.I lost my mind,thought I thought someone put some other drug in there, and I lost all control.I was screaming,felt doomed,etc...After the high left I came back to reality.The next time I felt anxiety was when I first moved out of my moms house and in with my girlfriend.I was 16 at the time and we had a daughter at the time.When I would go to sleep I felt like I would have crowded thoughts in my mind and it felt weird.Until I guess I got used to being on our own.Not too much of a big deal because I guess I was content with my life at the time.I had anxiety throughout my life but nothing too serious.Here and there I would get a headache and feel like I had a tumor b/c I would hear about it on tv or see a movie.Nothing too major.Until one day after my girlfriend of 7 years left me due to problems we were having.My entire world collapsed and it was devistating.At first I couldnt except reality,depressed,ect....I thought I was feeling better by drinking,partying,not getting any sleep,etc...Until one day at work I had a really bad panic attack out of the blue..I didnt know what it was I just felt doomed and felt like I was going insane...I knew it was due too everything that was going on,the excessive drinking,and all the partying.Plus my life had changed drastically because I moved in with my mom and my daughter was with her mom.I felt like I was at rock bottom.Well after the attack I felt as if something was wrong with me mentally and my anxiety last for about 2 weeks.Until it gradually got better,I started going to the gym,I watch what I was eating,and I stoppped drinking as much(I was drinking Every other day and all weekend before the attack)...I started to do better,got more social,started going out and meeting new people,saved money,lost weight,ect.My world looked a lot better and I felt happy.Months passed by and I got into the habit of drinking a lot,partying,and I was sleep deprived.I felt anxious at times but nothing too major.Until one day I had an attack after a long weekend of partying and drinking...Well during this weekend I heard a friend has a mental problem.Ive always had a phobia for mental problems..just the thought of me going crazy gives me anxiety...and especially right now..All the stress I got going on,I have a habit of blowing all my money when I go out,I work 7 days a week,have my daughter 4 days a week,her mom is dating(but still throws mix singles at me that I always try to interpret),and I guess all of this collapsed on me agian.I thought I was doing so well but everything just dropped.I'm just thinking about all of the negative things but the main thing bothering me is of me going insane or being diagnosed with something.....IDK last time I has a nervous break down, the depression,anxiety,and compulsive thinking lasted about 2 weeks.I just would really like some advice on the whole situation because when I get stuck in this phase I alwasy think irrational..Sorry for all the details and thanks for reading