Welcome to the site and group, I'm in the same situation as you almost, except I am not a college graduate and I have been in a relationship before. Regardless though, I feel the loneliness and suicidal thoughts too, I'm not the best at meeting people, so I've been single for what seems like such a long time and I don't have many friends either. I'm pretty depressed and awkward at times and many just don't understand it.

I'm a college grad too (B.A. in Communications) who, after years of floundering in the broadcast TV world and incurring tens of thousand$ in debt buying my own video equipment, am now finally debt-free and actually making a living in the wedding industry, doing an occasional shoot here and there of a civic event for the city and videoing summer theater camp plays.

Sometimes you just have to figure out what you like to do, how you want to spend your time, and then be prepared to do A LOT OF that which you like to do, because high quantity, high volume output, is necessary to make a lot of money.

And build honest, fair, pleasant, mutually prosperous professional relationships with A LOT OF PEOPLE. 10 or more people out there marketing in exchange for a percentage of booked work price gets you way more paying business than you could drum up on your own. Be considerate of others, be interested in making others as well as yourself money, and be an easy person to deal with, and you'll make money.

As far as being in love, get your own personal shit together first, or you'll bring all that negative baggage into any personal relationship you begin. Get yourself stabilized at least.

Yeah. My plan has been mostly to get my life situated first, and then I can think about relationships. All my life I have been too busy or too shy to feel like I could date anyone. And now I am out of school and without a job.

Being unemployed is a huge source of anxiety and not something that you can easily deal with by convincing yourself to think positively. That's because your fears are real and justified. That said, you can still do a lot to take care of yourself during this challenging time. I've found that I continue to have an anxiety hangover from being out of work for a couple of years, even though I have a job now. The thing is, once you've conditioned your body to be anxious all the time, then you get into an anxiety habit. The best thing you can do is to find ways to manage the stress and find moments of peace. You may need professional help for that. Depending on where you live, you may have a free clinic or counseling program that can help. But, i can't stress enough that if you are having thoughts of ending your life, you need to call a suicide hotline.

There's always something to live for. Don't give up. God will take you through this storm.