Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
What is really weird is that I never had much anxiety until about 6 months ago. I had horrible, suicidal depression, but not anxiety. Now, the anxiety is out of control and the depression is worse than ever. This is the darkest time of my entire life. One set back after another. I am shaking as I am writing this because the anxiety is so bad. It feels like a bomb went off in my stomach. I have zero structure in my life. Nothing outside of myself. Nothing to look forward to. I tried volunteering, going out exercising, etc, but nothing helps anymore. I feel painful, intense lonliness, as if I have been completely cut off from humanity. I have been out of work for what seems like an eternity. I feel so useless, even though I know there are millions of others out of work and feeling very anxious as well. That stil doesn't stop the guilt and shame. At the moment I am pretty much at the mercy of a very toxic family. I have been in this pit for so long I don't think I am going to ever recover this time. At this very moment the intense sense of dread and despair over just existing is too much.
once you find a job and have money, you will feel lots better. keep looking and be persistent. :)
and, at night, do things to relax yourself after a hard day of job searching.
If you haven't done so I strongly encourage you to see a doctor because there is no reason to live in so much pain if you don't have to. I have known too many people who have killed themselves because of depression like you described. One of them was one of the kindest people I have ever met, and he had a way of making me feel good about myself that nobody else has even come close to. I had no idea the kind of pain he was in. He kept it hidden. And I was devastated when I learned he had killed himself because he felt that there was no help for him. So please don't give up until you find something that helps. It is out there, you just have to keep looking.
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