I've always struggled with self image issues. I always felt humongous (I'm 5'6" and weigh 140 pounds) and extremely overwheight/unattractive for as long as I can remember ALWAYS comparing myself to the other girls/women I deemed above me. It's now getting worse and in the way of my relationship with my boyfriend. He loves me and has never done anything wrong by me but I feel like my insecurities and personal anxieties are ruining my relationship. He had ALWAYS wanted to be in a band and he now finally has the chance to be in one but I can't stop having anxiety attacks over it and just feeling completely upset over it as I feel he's going to leave me for someone else or cheat on me or simply just look at another girl with lust. I want to be supportive of him and want him to be happy but I'm not happy within myself at all because of this current situation and can't stop feeling defeated and wanting to either stop it from happening or leaving so he's happy without me. But I love him and he loves me and I don't want things to end.
I grew up with an abusive father and a loving mother who unfortunately was never financially independent to leave him and get the kids away from him. But nonetheless I had a fine, otherwise happy childhood.In high school I became a little experimental like many teenagers do, pot smoking mostly. Had a psychadelic drug user boyfriend soon after, who was kind and loving and who I became infatuated...
Hi everyone, well, i'm new to this group and its actually the first time i join a support group. I just always think talking things through whenever anxiety hits hard is usually so helpful, so why not be here for each other. I hope to have a nice time here, take care everyone