Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Yet another day when I was too anxious to go to work. I see a psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time in several years (my insurance doesn't cover) and I hope I can get something that will help. I take Tranxene, which usually makes it possible for me to work and has definitely made it possible for me to keep my job, but after a combination of circumstances this past winter it hasn't been enough. After my closest friend died in September I got very badly depressed and spent so many months trying to find psychiatric care that I came out of the depression before I could get an appointment with anyone. When my oldest and dearest friend died in February I was afraid I might become depressed again and maybe suicidal, but instead I've been doing weird things, like spending money in ways I shouldn't, and worrying constantly over my blood sugar (I'm a diabetic and while I was in the depression last fall my blood sugar levels shot up over 100 points and it's still high). And I haven't been able to do the things I need to, like clean house or do laundry. I realize I ended up anxious rather than depressed, or maybe both. Anyway, here's another day I didn't make it to work, and yet another thing (my employer's reaction) to worry about. I seriously want to crawl into a hole and cry, but I have a new landlady (nice but pushy) and I'm scared of her too, so being home is even scary because I don't know if she'll come by. I'm sorry to whine, but I just desperately needed to vent; I wish I had some way to make myself unconscious until some of the anxiety dissipates. I've even been scared to post for a while, but today I was desperate and I know people here are not usually judgmental. Thanks for listening to my ramble....
Good luck and I hope you feel better!
Heather
I understand where your coming from about work, im currantly not working because of my anxiety.
It sounds like you need help with medication being upped or changed, when you see someone definatly talk about it.
When you say you want to stay in bed and cleaning house is overwhelming, i also understand, it sounds like deppression.
I have lots of days like this too, i try to get get everything done then give myself permission to lay on my lazyboy or bed but just for one day.
Dont worry about your landlady, she cant harm you, just dont answer the door if you dont want too.
Then on a better day make conversation with her.
Please go and see a doctor! before things get completely out of controll for you.
Talk to your therapist about how you feel, he/ she will help you with this, and ask him/her tomake you a breathing and muscle relaxation tape for you, there are some very good work books for deppression, anxiety and phobias.
It,s all tiny step by tiny step, but is worth the hard work.
Hope you get some relief soon.
Hugs!