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a sensitive being (a rant)

lucillegem
lucillegem

how to balance yourself in such a hectic world? such a chaotic lifestyle?


especially, as I know I am just so sensitive, I am emotional being and damn, I do get stressed easily.


this week particularily, I am just so overwhelmed by everything. Mostly due to health concerns, dealing with endometriosis chronic pain and on top, I have dental problems. And everything just piles up... gah. Meanwhile I must put on a brave face and continue on, go to university and act as if I know what Im doing, living with that invisible disease. When will I ever make peace with it... i dont know.


And inside I feel empty. I just want to break down and cry (cried too much this week). I guess Im just awfully scared. I hate medical exams, going to doctors. I get anxious and my heart beats so fast. I suppose its because Ive never had a pleasant experiences going to doctors, learly as I have quite a few health issues, and i get usually bad news SIGH! maybe im being dramatic. Being my sensitive self. 


Does anyone else feel, that sometimes health problems can be overpowering, and trigger anxiety???


I just dont know... what to do... what to think... sometimes I just want to hide under a blanket, and just sleep, think that this life is just a bad nightmare!


though sooner or later, I have to get up and face it all. And, then theres university... I wish I could be enjoying myself more, damned health issues always seem to overshadow my enjoyment in life, such struggles. I wish I knew how to be positive in the light of all the struggles... does anyone have any positive thoughts that they can share, or even relatable story? id appreiciate it.


Im just hanging on a thread, emotionally here :/

anxietypath
anxietypath
Yes - "health anxiety" - anything to do with medical issues - very common - you are certainly not alone with this one.

Keep in mind that anxiety is as vast as our imagination. It has an endless supply of creativity at its disposal. AND... worst part is that it knows exactly what will control us. It uses this "inside" information along with the creativity to create our worst fears. Scenarios that affect us on a deep emotional level with fear.

Learn cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and create recovery for yourself. It is possible. You can recover.
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
I can relate to having chronic pain, anxiety and depression (which I have had my whole life). Through my experiences, I have found that I become more anxious because the chronic pain never goes away. I used to become so anxious before going to the dentist that I would get a migraine headache. It seemed I always leave the office with more bad news about my teeth and the dental care that I needed to get. As for other doctors, I would get nervous, but I didn't get sick like I did when I went to the dentist. For a long time I also had endometriosis that I was treated for and no longer have it. I now suffer with chronic cornea pain, blindness in one eye and low vision in the other eye. I experienced all of this while working full time and raising three sons. I somehow managed to get through it, but sometimes I don't know how. While going through these things I was struggling with anxiety and depression. I did not get professional help for my depression and anxiety until I was in my mid thirties. I was given medication and therapy as needed. I recommend that you try to stay as positive as you can and get help if you feel like you are unable to do it on your own. I wish you well. Feel free to message me if you want to.
Onlythelonely
Onlythelonely
Health-related/triggered anxiety is a common thing. Sorry for your pain, emotionally and physically. I noticed that you mentioned several times in your post that you are sensitive. I have always been highly sensitive from the time I was a small child. I didn't really realize it or have a label for it until I heard of the book The Highly Sensitive Person by Elaine N. Aron Ph.D. I would recommend it. It helped me immensely. Also, have you considered a support group where you can share your feelings and get some things off your chest so you don't feel like you're the only one going through this and so that you don't have to carry it all alone.
Ellidee
Ellidee
Hello!

You are not alone; I also struggle with health-related anxiety and triggers.

I have been going through medical treatments for most of my life, and have seen countless doctors. Each treatment ended horribly even though my medical condition isn't very hard to treat (my first doctor messed up badly, so I've been getting "reconstructive" treatments since then). In fact, my latest treatment is the main cause of my trauma, which I am still dealing with after a whole year. Right now, I have decided that there's no need for me to see doctors anymore, especially because all the anxiety and pain I went through isn't worth it anymore. It wasn't too hard for me to make this decision because I don't have a life-threatening medical condition-----so for those who do have a serious medical condition, please don't read my "story" and automatically think that you're better off without doctors.....this decision is specific to my circumstances and may not be the best for you.

As a result of my experiences with doctors, I've developed really bad trust issues in everyday life. It's now harder for me to find a good doctor I trust. It's been hard for me to find a therapist/psychologist, too. When we get sick, people tell us to go see a doctor, right? But through my experiences, seeing a doctor didn't always fix the problem; sometimes it even made it worse. That's a fear I've been struggling with.

I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one dealing with health-related anxiety and triggers. I'm sorry you have to deal with all this. Hope my story helps :)

Good luck!
soulwarrior
soulwarrior
I sympathize and empathize. I don't know if you have BUT I've gotten judged and condemned by doctors more often than not,and when I get news from doctors it's RARELY good! Two examples of getting treated bad by doctors are: I, one tIme,got dirty(and disgusted) looks from a doctor and a few of the nurses that worked for him because they believed I was lying to them about a very,very personal bit of information when I wasn't. I just happen to be a rare one for my age group. The next doctor cornered me in a chair, his face was(literally) in my face and he accused me of lying and got verbally abusive.
When I go to a female doctor I have medium level anxiety episodes and it takes me the rest of the day to recover. If it's a male doctor,on the other hand I end up have full blown PTSD episode(the ONLY time it's slightly moderated is if I remember to take two nerve pills before going,unfortunately I don't always remember because when I go I'm already a nervous wreck and seeing a male doctor sends me right over the edge I'm teetering on)and it takes me any where from a week to two weeks to recover physically. Mentally and emotionally it takes me longer to recover and become stable again. I,usually, have to double my nerve medication for the first two weeks after.
I,also, have TMJ(a jaw disorder). Mine is SO severe that I don't go to dentists AT ALL!! So I sympathize with you in the dental area as well.
I hope things get better for you soon!
ddree
ddree
All the time! I was in an extremely terrible car accident as a teenage and from that was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. As an adult, I was diagnosed with Celiac and Lyme disease and the chronic pain gets overwhelming. When you sandwich my factors in with with health issues of my kids (3 kids... 1 born hard of hearing and other 2 have a rare blood disorder) as well as my father's deteriorating health (he is my stronghold).... it's hard to stay afloat. I often feel okay during the day but at night wake up in terrible night sweats and racing heart that I cannot get down without my meds. I too am working through this.