Today was a really bad day. All day at work my mind was racing. I am seeing this girl who lives a couple hours away. If you've been reading my posts you are probably thinking "no not this again" haha, but I just really need some help. I am falling for her and falling hard. I don't know how if she feels the same. Shes all I can think about, it's causing me a lot of axiety, I'm going to the gym tonight to run even though its about 0 degrees here because I need to get some sleep tonight and after the first 20 minutes on the treadmil I pretty much go numb and can't feel anything which is just what I need. I miss her so much when she's gone and it's driving me crazy. I am only 22 years old I know I'm young and have my whole life ahead of me. I think the thing that is driving me the craziest is the fact that deep down I am scared to get close to her but it's too late for that. I am incredibly emotionally attached at this point. I told myself again and again to take things slow and not get to involved but I can't control it. I so scared that she won't feel the same way. I've never been in a relationship before and never broken up, I just don't know if I could handle a breakup. I fall apart so easily as it is it seems I just don't know if I would ever come out from under a breakup, or finding out that shes not interested at this point. Why do I drive myself crazy? All my friends say I need to relax but I can't I need help, I need her.
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