That is good that you are journaling. I think it is a very important part of the healing process. Many of us here feel scared, uncertain about our future and trying to deal with our anxiety in different ways. It is good you are reaching out. I will send you a friend request. You are not alone.

I know it's difficult , but try to have a positive attitude and believe the
increase in dose will help you. I was on 150 mg of Wellbutrin without
much luck. When the doc it increased it to 300mg within 2 weeks the
sun started to shine again...huge difference.

If the increased dose doesnt help , there are a lot of other SSRI's to try.
If that doesnt work , they can go to SNRI's. Finding the right cocktail can be a lot of trial and error.

Oh my goodness you're isolated! :) You need to go to the local swimming pool or library evening class thing, meet some people. It's so hard in a new town without anyone there.

That sounds tough. I'm also living in a place where I have no close friends or anything, and it can be hard. I have looked into some casual social events and activities, and have found that just meeting some nice people has been good for me. Maybe seeing if there's a community or other group that shares your interests would be a good thing to try out.

I don't know what will work for you, but maybe seeing someone, like a psychologist or psychiatrist, Psychologists can treat anxiety through a variety of techniques (cognitive behavioral therapy, for example, is often effective for anxiety), and psychiatrists have a lot more expertise on medication for anxiety than a family doctor would. In short, I really can't say what's best for your situation, and none of us here are professionals. So, I think you should seek out people who are professionals, and see how they might be able to help.

It's tough dealing with this stuff, and I'm sure it's tough dealing with it on your own. All the best. To reiterate an above comment, you're not alone, and we're all here to support each other.

EDIT to above: "... maybe seeing someone, like a psychologist or psychiatrist, could help. Psychologists can treat..."

Accidentally deleted the end of that sentence.

Thank you to everyone that posted. I am on day 3 of the medication and so far nothing much has changed. I am seeing a therapist twice a month as I cannot afford much more. I am hoping that time will help me. I appreciate the online support.

You got this. Keep your head up!

You are doing the best thing making friends on this site. It is important to have people that can relate to you and have been thru what you are going thru. I am on prozac for 20 yrs and on 40mg. I had anxiety, panic attacks since I was 15 yrs old. I am now 64 yr old my how time flys. What I am saying is this too shall pass. I sent a friend request to you.

Im here with you. Try not to be afraid of what could come, i do the same thing. Take it day by day moment by moment. Its great you are journaling!! I do the same and it helps. Maybe try to get some fellowship because you work from home. I know when im not working outside the house and getting around ppl my depression gets bad.