I don't know what to tell you except that we are all here for you. Take it one day at a time. Are you on any medications that could possibly list hallucinations as a side effect? I don't know I might be grabing at straws, but I am trying to help you.

I agree. Take it easy, try to find a safe and quiet place to relax. It's cold here, but maybe in FL you can still take a nice walk on the beach!

Schizophrenia is a mental disorder that distorts your perception of real vs unreal. Auditory hallucinations and disorganized thinking are pretty classic symptoms. IF you have it, it seems to gravitate to paranoid schizophrenia. Except the threats from your ex are real, and a normal person might act in the same way.

Talk with your doctor. Maybe you're on meds in which this is a side effect. But it really seems like you are just scared and very traumatized.

I hope things get better, and you achieve happiness in your life. Hang in there!

i'm not on any meds right now :(

Well, what are you currently enrolled in to help with your PTSD? First things first. Like everyone else said, let's take this one step at a time.

If you have PTSD, I am assuming that some of the symptoms could be causing flashbacks. I am not too sure because I am not very familiar with PTSD. What I can tell you is to get to a place that you feel safe and contact your therapist or doctor and explain your feelings. If you are suicidial you might want to go to the ER to seek immediate treatment. If not then take it one day at a time and follow up with your doctor as soon as possible.

Go to a doctor and discuss your feelings and symptoms you sound like your making yourself crazy dwelling on these thoughts. I would def got be checked out you need to know that your mind is sound.

You are just having a bad moment and it will pass. YOU are letting these awful thoughts in and feeling them and examining them and dwelling on them and using a microscope on them. We all have scary thoughts. Everyone on the planet. They are just thoughts. We have thousands coming in and out. Some good , some bad, some true, some not. You just pulled out one and played with it. That is all it is. Just a stupid, scary, irrational thought. It is not who you are. It is not how you are. It does not define you. We have so many thoughts and we really have to watch what we tell ourselves and challenge the stupid scary thoughts. If you tell your self oh I am fat, I look ugly then you are not going to feel good about yourself. Eventhough you know you are not fat or ugly. So for starters try to catch yourself and stop the negative thoughts. Write them down and dispute them . Eventually you will be able to dispute them in your head. Then make a list of positive affirmations to use and say them every singlke day. I have a list, you might iuncorporate them ibnto your list: I am strong and healthy, I know how to take care of myself emotionally and physically, I feel calm and relaxed, I will not let a bad moment ruin my day, I am full of energy and vitality, i handle stress and tension approriately and effectively. My mood is calom and relaxed, I can cope well and get on with my life during times of stress, I think thoughts that UPLIFT and NURTURE me, I enjoy thinking POSITIVE thoughts that make me feel good about myself and my life, I deserve to feel good right now, I feel peaceful and calm, My muscles are relaxsed and comfortable. I feel grounded and fully present, I can effectively handlke any situation that comes my way, I think through the the solutiona to my emotional issues slowly and peacefully. , I am thyankful for all the POSITIVE in my life, I practice relaxation techniques that I enjoy, My body is healthy and strong, I eat a well balanvced and nutritiois diet, I do regular exercise in a relaxed and enjoyable manner, I am filled with energy, vitality and self confidence, I am pleased with how I handle my emotional needs, I know exactly how to manage my activity level to take care of those needs, I love and honor my body, I fill my mind with psoitive and self nourishing thoughts, I am a wonderful and worthy person, I deserve health,k vitality and peace of mind, I have total confidence in my ability to heal myself, I feel radiant with abundant energy and vitality, The world around me is full of radiant beauty and abundance, I am ATTRACTED only to those people and situations that SUPPORT AND nurture me, I appreciate the psoitive pwople and situations that currently are in my life, I love and honor myself, I enjoy my positive thoughtsw and feelings, I can enjoy this day, I know if I need help there are people out there to help me, I will do my best to take care of myself , I will not "should" on myself , I will not "what if" on myself, , I will enjoy this moment now.

Sometimes when we have an anxiety episode it mnakes us feel out of control, confused and a sense that things are falling apart. This relaxation technique will help you feel focused and grounded.
Find a comfortable place to sit. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Close your eyes. Try to relax those shoulders and your neck. Bring those shoulders down. Now let your arms relax to the side of you. Let your breathing be slow and relaxed. Now imagine the biggest strongest widest tallest tree . See it. Imagine that you are that tree your body is the trunk is is wide and sturdy and so strong, your arms are the branches, they are thick and so strong , your feet and legs are the roots. You know the trees that you have see where the roots are so big they tear up sidewalks anmd they extend far and wide. imagine your roots going for miles and miles and deep and deeper into the earth. Tieing arouned boulders and building. You feel srong and confident. Your body is anchored, You feel solid and grounded. you are able to handle any stress that comes your way. Feel the strength and stability in your arms and legs. You feel confident and relaxed and able to handle any situatuon.

If you feel like you are in crisis then do something about it, call the crisis center. that is what they are there for. An

AN ANXIOUS MIND CANNOT EXIST IN A RELAXED BODY!! so thinks of ways that really relax your body: yoga, relaxation exercises, a bath, sex,

Another relaxation exercise that works for me is startt by lying down, try to slow your brathing down but don't worry about it, if you can't you can't, it will come, focus on your toes and tense them up for five seconds and count outloud 1 one thousanbd two onethousand etc, then relax then counting, Then go on to your ankle, your shoin, your knee, etc. Even your dface , tigheten your face up and relax it, every part. The once you calm yourself down pat yourself on the back. Because you are capable of calming yourself down. You can use this anytime as many times as you want. It is another tool under your belt.

List the positive in your life-every single day. May start off with fivce things. Anything from the warth of the coffee cup to the beautiful weather to you got yourself in a comfortable situation, to you did call the doctor and did something.

Speak to yourself as you would a childe or a friend. What would you tell a friend: I am here for you, everything will be alright, we will work on this, let's get out of here, lets watch a fuuny movie and get your mind off of this

Seek humor: get yourself to smile. look upo jokes o the internet!

Socialize:P Invite someone over or go out for lunch or just call someone- an old friend , grandma ? aybody?

Stgart a hobby -maybe two or three. So when you are feeling bad, sad, blah, you have something else to focus on andyou will be using a fifferent part of the brain and this will give you a sense of calm. I started scrapbooking, and drawing,

When you mind is giving you a hard time do a soduko puzzle , crossword even a computer game something that challenges your mind-again using a different part of your mind.

Journal -get it out. Especially the abuse and know that you are a lot smarter, a lot stronger today than yesterday. You know what to look for in a person and that can never happen again. He was the sick, mannipulitive person not you.

I hope some of these techniques help.

You are not schizo- You will not become schizo. PTSD will not lead to schizo. If you need more reassurance ask your doctor. You can scare yourself so mush and imagine hearing sounds and images but that is not schizo. S

Great advice Shemp. I would just add that your mind is extremely sensitized right now caused by all the worry. You need to slow down big time. Thoughts are only thoughts, just observe them - let them come and go without engaging them or becoming emotional about them. Practice relaxation techniques - these really do work to quiet the mind down. You also need to quiet your body. Do not take any caffeine or sugar. Take regular meals to always include a serving of carbohydrate and protein (the protein is very important). At night 1/2 hour before bedtime, take a single serving of protein only - this will help you fall into a deep restful sleep. You are not going to turn into schizophrenic (I think this is a very common, but unfounded fear, for those suffering from anxious symptoms.

Im so terrified of having schizophrenia.....
i can not live like this anymore! i dont want to live anymore! im so terrified of having schizophrenia or being misdiagnosed with it rather than having PTSD!! i hate my ex, and im extremely scared of him wanting to kiill me....god am i delusional? do i really not have ptsd instead have schizophrenia????? im seriously thinking im hearing things(in my mind not like theyre really there)that arent there, am i crazy?? i just want the pain to all go away....just want it to stop.....Im so terrified. :( :( I know i am all over the place, but, im really scared. Can someone with schizophrenia also have PTSD and vice versa.... My ex boyfriend abused me for a year and told me he ******* hated me and would kill me if he could, which is why im afraid of him actually doing it.... im so scared please help :(


A psychiatrist told me once that people who worry about going crazy never do, the one's who are really mentally ill don't know it. Anxiety feeds on itself and at some point in time, you need to put your foot down and stop the cycle. I'd suggest some mild medication until you get your thoughts under control. I ran from medication my entire life until I just had to have some relief. I suffered needlessly when there is help available.

wow tough for u. I believe that it is hard for u live that way u have. I wish I could use real magical wand to u off schizophrenia. I wish i am scientist and want to help people to get off. Well, Myself i cant live with BPD sock u know what i mean? i feel bad for u

It sounds to me like the doctor might be right about your diagnosis but you should really talk to them about your feelings of disbelief. If you've been diagnosed with schizophrenia why aren't you on meds? Most people have to go on them because they help with the hallucinations like the voices in your head and the fear of your bf wanting to kill you. My bf has told me plenty of times he wanted to kill me but hasn't. It is just something they do to make you go insane. A type of manipulation I think to over power you and make you feel weak.

So one your probably not in a good relationship and should get out of it. Two you really have to talk to your doctors and possibly start taking meds that will help your mind. You wouldn't have to take meds if you can do what the others have been telling you to do which is to try and control your thoughts on your own and to think positive, but some people can't do it without meds.

I pray that you get the help you need and that you start feeling better and not so afraid. Any mental illness is treatable and people can start to live happier lives. They just have to want to get help. Learn everything you can about your illness and ways to get better. Take care.

See girl, I told you the same thing as herdle! Thats what my therapist told me. When I had one. And I read it in a book about mental illness.
You are just over stressed! Way over stressed!!! You need to relax like they are saying. Tell your therapist how you are feeling. And certainly if you are suicidal, get help immediatly! But definatly do talk to your therapist!
Here for ya!
Nikki

If you really think your ex-is threatening you. You need to get a restraining order. Call a womens shelter. You need to report this. If you think it is just delusional thinking, you need to get yourself calmed down. breathe, meditate, call a therapist, or even a crisis center. Your in my prayers. I know what your pain feels like. I validate you.