What are you planning on doing?

i really don't know it was just a stupid thought i don't want that thought anymore

you need to call a friend or a sister or someone your close with and let them know how you feel. I had the same thoughts about 2 months ago. I went to emerg and talk to someone through the crises center. They help. Just to talk to someone that understands what your going through. But please let a friend or a family member know what your feeling;.You shouldnt feel this why and you shouldnt have to.

To be truthful, I felt the same way the past year and really wanted to die, even thought about putting a bullet in my head, but then my mom figured out what I was thinking and it really frightened her enough to call her nemesis, my dad (her ex-husband). I guess what I realized is maybe I would get relief from non-existence, but my family and friends wouldn't if I off'd myself. For myself and because I don't want to cause deep-set pain to people who actually love me more than I do myself, I better just seek help instead.

I hope you feel better. Please call someone and just talk it through with them before you do something. :)

thanks for the advice guys because things seem so dire right now i gotta find help fast and get this dealt with and free my fears.

Id be lying if I said during panic the thought never crossed my mind, or I thought to myself I cant take it anymore, but the panic lasts for 20 minutes...and anxiety may stay, but Id be missing out on so much more!!! I know exactly how you feel, my muscles litereally ache some days from being so tense, I wake up and it feels like Ive been lifting weights. all from being so scared and tense.. Hugs if you ever need to talk feel free to message me!!

Like sinatra said,I also have had those same thoughts with fibromyalgia for 20yrs and now the anxiety,sure I've thought of the easy way out for ME,but then I thought of the pain and suffering my family would go through,my kids,I could never do that to them and now grandkids.
PLEASE TALK to someone you are close to and let them no your thoughts,they will understand,I also went to counceling and it helped alot. My prayers are with you,Keep your chin up,this to shall pass :)

I've come close to what you are thinking about. And now it scares me everytime I hear someone talk about the same thing. I hope you are ok and found someone to talk to about it. Let us know if you are ok.

Don't let this anxiety get the best of yyou. I know it can be depressing especially at the beginning when you don't know what it is and you don't have the tools. It does get better. Today you have more coping skills than yesterday.and tomorrow you will have even more. But it does take time. In the mean time learn all you can about anxiety and panic disorder. If you feel that bad and feel suicidal call the crisis center. Even if you know you won't but have that ugly feeling , it is good to do something about it. You don't have to feel that way, There is help out there. You may needs meds. I take an antidepressent and I want you to knowe they do put you in a stupior. For me the effects are like taking a vitamin. At the beginning the only thing i felt unnusual was dry mouth and it could have been my nerves and not the meds. There are other temporary drugs like valiums, ativan, etc. The are only for temporary use and help at the beginning until you learn better coping skills. They immediately calm your body down but of course with or without them you have to learn coping techniques. At first it may be necessary to talk to your family doctor to rule out any medical problems. Because certain disease and even over the counter supplements ande medicines can give you anxiety. The thyroid could be off, or diabetes, also produc the same sensations as anxiety. Also long stretches of stress, hormones, depression, can lead to anxiety. So talking to a therapist will also help to figure this out. Just venting helps and having a third person who is not family or a friend helps. A family member will say the wrong thing like : don't worry about it, or just push, the problem with you is, etc. It is something that you do not need to hear now. It is a disorder for what ever the reason you have it and accept it. With that said know that it is only a temporary feeling, it really will ill not die from it. You will not faint. You will not have a heart attack. You will not sweat yourself to death. You will not go insane!
I have a couple list. This one I use to carry with me all the time. I don't need it anymore. Here iit is:
1.Accept the feeling
-it cannot hurt you. It is anxiety and I will feel it it /. I will let it pass through my body. I may sweat feel funny but that is all it is. (I know this is hard at the beginning but you wuill know that it is just a feeling and for me right now when I am feeling anxious if I say ok bring it on, then it comes and goes and only last about a minute or two and it is over. )
2.Give yourself permission to feel anxiety. I feel anxious because I have a lot on my plate today and it is ok or I feel anxious because it just is.
3. Breath slowly through your nose.
Count slowly one one thousand , two onethousand three onethousand and exhale slowly.
4. Calm yourself with positive feedback.
I can cope . I am a strong and confident person. I know what to do to calm myself and I will do it., etc.
5. Let go, just let it be.
Let it come and go.
6. Distract yourself.
Call a friend. Go on the computer. Soduko puzzle works for me. In the car I count backwards from one hundred by threes.
7. Use the adreneline in a good way. Walk, clean, wash the car. Do something physical.
8. Don't let a bad morning ruin your day. Don't let a bad day scare you.
9. Give yourself a pat on the back for how far tyou have come.
Think about the fitrst attack and you were immobolized or called the doctor. Each day you will be better. You can't go backwards. You have more wisdom today than yesterday.
10. Just let time pass. It will go away. It will go away.



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I told you I have list and notes! lol
I have a notebook one section I write ten things that I am greatful for that happen the day befoe.
Anotehr section I jouirnal. I just write and write until I calm myself down. It might say I feel like shit at this moemnt and i can scream because I done't know wht to do. etc. Write don't worry about spelling or neatness.
The other section I have for prayer. I have list of people I started to pray for and of course my family and me. I pray for strength and guidance. I pray that people see good through me and I pray that Jesus takes ny hand and hungs me while I go through this. Whatever that is personally.
Another section I have a list of affitmations. I learned tha when people are anxious they have a tendency to beat themselves u[p which only makes matters wors. They can lose their self-confidence, and feel ungounded and lack concentration. These affirmations help
*I haNDLE STRESS AND TENSION APPRIPRIATELY AND EFFECTIVELY.
* mY mood is calm and relaxed
I can coope well and get on with my day
* I think thoughts that uplift and nurture me
*I enjoy thinking positive thoughts that m ake me feel good about myself and my life
I deserve to feel good right now
* I feel peaceful and calm
*My breathing is slow and calm
Mymuscles are relaxed abnd comfortable
*Ifeel grounded and fully present*I can effectively handle any situatuion that comes my way
*I think through the solutions to my emotional issues slowly and peacefully.
I am tahnkful for all the positive things in my life,.* My body is healthy and strong.*I do exercise in a rel;axed and enjoyable manner. *
*I am filled with energy, vitality, and self confidence.*I am pleased with how I handle my emotuional needs. *I know exactl;y how to manage my daikly schedule to promote my emotuional and onhysicalwell being.* I listen to my body's needs and regulate my activity level top take care iof those needs. *I love and honor my body. *I fill my mind with positive and self-nourishing thoughts. *I am a wonderful and worthy person. *I deserve health, vitality and peace of mind.*I have total confidence in my ability to heal myself. I feel radiant with abundant energy and vitality.*I am attracted only to those people and situations that suport and nurture me. I appreciate the positibe people i and situations that are currrently in my life. I enjoy my positive thoughts and feelings.

Then there is meditation: Sit in a chair with your arms at your sides . Slow down your breathing. Imagine that you are a big, massive oak tree. Your body is the trunk and your arms the limbs. and your legs and feet are the roots and they far and wide and deep. Really imagine themm deep and wide into the earth. You feel stron and grounded and able to handle any stress that comes your way!

Or visulize you have a Strong roape tied around your waist and visulaize the robe is tied to the center of the earth. Let your mind seel the rope going deeper and deeper into the earth,

Or. Visualize you are sitting in a comfoprtable spot in your house and Jesus enters , feel the peace, you tell him you don't feel strong and need hin to walk with you today and you picture talking your hand walking though the day with you.


I could go on and on but i better start my day or I will be stress !lol Sorry about the typing errors. I was typing as fast as I can. Hope you cab figure out the mistakes... I have more information. Or did I already give too much, too soon