I understand exactly how you feel. That is a constant fear that I have. I also made the decision to leave therapy and stop medication. I have recently began exercising which is effective in helping me cope with stress, especially right after work. I find myself worrying less. I hope everything works out for you.

I sent you a message. Prayer works but you have to believe. God has your back. He said He would supply all your needs. You may need a break from some people or things in your life. I've lost a couple of jobs in the past year from doing things I thought were right but they didn't look at it the same way. Keep your head up and find out where God wants you to go in your life right now.

A mistake doesn't not make you a failure. Your human and as such you are bound to an imperfect design. Remember this before you assume your going to lose your job for one mistake. Not all bosses are unreasonable people.

Thank you all so much for your kind words. I am still stuck in the middle right now. I doubt that I can fix this right away, but I hope it will. I am trying to give myself breaks from the spiraling thoughts because in the end I cannot think of anything productive when I am so gripped by fear it freezes me in a nonproductive cycle. Thank you, all of you, I appreciate it.

you are in my prayers and keep venting you are need on this earth everyone haves a purpose when one door close another one opens

WidderColleen It's just that as many things that frustrate me with my job, there is so much I love. I work with the developmentally disabled. I love the honesty of the people I care for, and many of them are so very sweet. I feel like I am doing good and I feel we both grow together. I have to trust God though, and I have to do my best to follow his teachings best I can.
Katrice, I wish I hadn't stopped therapy. I just wish I had found a better therapist. I do try to walk , as it eases some of the tension in me. Other times I have to physically exhaust myself just to make sure I sleep through the night at times.

I agree with taliapeaches..not all bosses are unreasonable. I think sometimes as an overly anxious person we tend to think others are much like us. It can be very difficult to see someone else's perspective. Some people are more laid back and understanding than we realize. I used to deal with situations like this on a near daily bases. Before I decided to quit my job. (There were multiple factors that lead to my decision). It may even be something that just works itself out, you know. In other words it may not be as big of a "mistake" as you think. Sometimes what one considers a fail could actually be a new opportunity..never know! Keep your head up. :) Prayers!

Tomorrow is the day when I finally contact my supervisor. I have been waiting for the right time and am now doing it by email (probably writing it tonight), or at least that is the plan. Please dear God let me be overreacting for nothing, please. I will let you guys know what happens next Thank you, all of you, for your kind words and support in this.

So I ended up speaking to my supervisor today, they have to look into it further and they will let me know what I can expect. I feel stupid that I made such a mistake at work. They said that as it stands I shouldn't lose my job; I just wish this was over already and I knew the outcome. Now , who knows how long I have to wait to see what my penalization will be. Hopefully, it will just be a fine (I'm okay with that as long as it is reasonable).