Anxiety Support Group

Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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rttsmom 05/14/2012

I woke up today feeling nervous and the feeling is still there. I have this pain in my stomach and I can't leave my room. I want to because I'm hungry but I'm afraid to leave because I don't want to take on any responsibilities because they're too much even though they're small. i don't want to see downstairs because i don't want to see the mess. i'm tired of being blamed for it and i'm tired of living in it. my mind is just as cluttered as the house. I've been waiting for my grandmother to get home and help me by watching the baby for a while and she just got here but she left again and now I feel even worse. can somebody tell me what this is? is this a nervous breakdown or something?

anxietymc 05/14/2012

Could it be postpartum depression? Have you seen a doctor about these feelings yet? I wouldn't hurt to get a medical opinion.

With regards to you not wanting to leave the room, is there something small you can do like maybe cleaning one corner of an area to help you feel like you are making progress towards the mess?

I know when my place is cluttered, it takes a huge toll on my mood. I get really unfocused, uncomfortable and slightly anxious about the mess and not being able to get around easily or find anything. It helps sometimes to just clean out at least a small spot in the house to start.

I hope you can find a moment of peace today.

rttsmom 05/14/2012

I don't think it's PPD. But it's a possibility. I have not talked to a doctor. I'm afraid I can't afford the treatment I need. Everything medical related costs a lot of money these days. As for the mess, I do clean small amounts up but it doesn't help me feel better because I can't can't make a difference. It's impossible for me to clean this place by myself and i'm too ashamed to ask anyone who doesn't live here for help. I dont want them to see the house. I can't afford a professional cleaning service.

rttsmom 05/14/2012

Thanks anxietymc. I hope I do too.

deleted_user 05/14/2012

It does sound a lot like how I felt with Postpartum anxiety/depression. Remind yourself that how you feel is temporary, over and over again if you have to. You may need to try and get some professional help. If you have to, find an urgent care clinic on a sliding pay scale. Their are also counselors/therapist on sliding scales to make them affordable. Most medications come in generic and you can get them on the $5 or $10 list.
How long has this been going on? It's one thing if you are just feeling discouraged and overwhelmed today but if you feel like this every day and you can't leave you house at all, you need to see someone and let them guide you out so that you don't stay in this state or get worse. You will be so glad you reached out, I promise! Hugs!

deleted_user 05/14/2012

Did you ever make it out of your room today? I was going to suggest getting fresh air, open a window. Do know breathing exercises? Also try some of these guided meditations , they are free at:

http://www.fragrantheart.com/cms/free-audio-meditations

You will make it, you need to take baby steps to move through the day.

rttsmom 05/14/2012

thanks guys. i made it out of my room after my grandmother got home. i felt safer with her here. i figure i do need professional help so i will try to do what i can to help myself when i get a chance.

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