Yesterday I lost another pregnancy of multiples to antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. Out of 5 pregnancies I should have 7 children but I only have 1 living child because of this curse. I thought I was use to it but I feel a little piece of me die every time and I'm spiraling into a deep depression. I want more children but apparently my body says otherwise.
Tainted fertile ground
I am under much stress. Part of the stress is a demand from my illness that I not take action. Part of that inaction is a character defect called dishonesty that I can afford time to procrastinate, and also that I am too great to have to address the stressful event. There is also a fear that I will mess something up, self-reliance, etc. So what is the problem? The problem is I am trying...
I assume many people here can relate for varying reasons. I've never seen a normal relationship. My dad couldn't stop drinking and left before I was born. IDK how relationships are supposed to look. The only person I ever felt accepted around was my mom. I keep hearing how being in a relationship can be just as bad. I feel so alone in the world. How can I ever find a relationship,...