Anger Management Support Group
Anger management commonly refers to therapeutic techniques by which someone with excessive or uncontrollable anger can control or reduce their emotions. Typical examples include the use of deep breathing and meditation as a means to relaxation. Psychologists recommend a balanced approach, which both controls the emotion and allows it to express itself in a healthy way.
If I'm not angry, I'm not really feeling anything. Most of the time I'm just angry. I'm not even sure what at, to be honest. Let me describe it to you. It's like an off and on switch in my brain. The rage just comes out of no where, I'm not sure if there's something making me angry in my sub conscious or what. I feel the need to destroy, break, and catch fire to things. Often times I feel very violent. I try to isolate myself during these times or go on a jog. I try to isolate myself because when I'm feeling this way I fantasize about how it would feel to... be violent. I'd rather not go into detail. Yelling at people used to really do it for me, but now I tend to stay very quiet instead. I'd much rather do damage with my hands. It's like a need. Has any one else felt it? To be honest I feel rather silly when I describe it this way, but it is how it is, and it's something I really don't think I can control. I try to take my anger out on objects instead, but that's getting harder to do.
If you grew up in a stable environment, not much trauma - almost all kids have some trauma in their childhood, but if you didn't have anything severe, or recurring, it could be a chemical imbalance, medical problem, tumor, etc. - rare, but it happens.
I hope you will seek treatment, and not give up. There are answers and a solution. Be your own advocate. If something sounds not right for you, extreme - you might want to move on to another doctor.