The first line was so funny. I can relate.

All you can do is find something else to do or find new friends, which isn't easy. There was a Jeopardy contestant who was rejected probably a record number of times. When he finally qualified, he was amazing. Instead of just getting bitter, he got busy. Most anyone would have given up -- not him. This doesn't work when you're dealing with _____tards, but, you can find something to throw yourself into, that doesn't involve anyone else's participation. It can become more important than anything else.

Sending you good thoughts and hope things get better for you.

Understood. Mine happens because of biology and abuse, but I understand. It pushed my sun and stars out of my life. And I'm dying because of it.

I know exactly what you mean. I have a love-hate relationship with the world, and with myself. Most of the time I contain it but I am the queen of passive-aggression. Sometimes I am a time bomb. I have lashed out at people physically, which is frightening. When I can't do that, it just comes back on me like a boomerang. I also have had fantasies of punishment-suicide. It probably won't happen but it is incredibly frustrating to be stuck in this place.

People r wired to avoid angry ppl. I exercise and it does not always work.

Ppl still might avoid me. It is a survival issue. Funny thing is, i akso avoid other angry ppl.

i understand you.i am oftenly bitter and angry. i think life is crap,i oftenly wanna punch some of my family members....my anger comes from depression, and some of my disorders.i just wanna sometimes throw stuff and beat up people but i don't want to feel this way.i want to be good,i actually volonteer with insitutionalized kids and there i can control my anger.i actually try doing something good and usefull to somehow replace my anger.

Is it okay for me to jump in here? If involving yourself in helping others actually makes you feel less angry (or better about yourself), is there more time that can be spent doing just that- helping others? If helping others helps you too, that seems like a win-win! Maybe in the process of helping others, do you think it allows you time and energy to work through your anger altogether?

well,i think it helps me a lot,but sometimes when i am alone i find myself feeling this way again.and there are times when i just have to be alone,i sometimes need to have a space for myself only.plus i can't volonteer 24/7,although i would wish that in my volonteer organization we get to visit the kids more often then we do.unfortunately,i have autism myself and that is sometimes cause of my anger.