I am had a MAJOR breakdown down on June 13,2008. I went ballistic friday. I was in a fucked up mood all day. Everything irrated in the worse way. People didn't know how to drive & rude(So. California). I ask my family for money for a surgery and they are dragging their fucking feet. I can't find a job. I albsolutely lost. I I left the house and went to see "The Hulk". Great movie but wrong movie to see when you very angry. I came home and lost it. I smash and scream out loud. came home and everything went wrong. I cried out like I like someone. (I did me). My wife and to get on top me to console me. I actually blackout and my wife have to talked some sense in me. I actually don't remember what she told me to snapped me out of it. I think day night was the pinnacle of me not finding work. I been looking for work for six months. I felt helpless as a man. I felt alone and I'M ANGRY AT GOD FOR THE FEELING OF BEING FORSAKEN. I come from a religious background. So for now, I'm not talking to Him. I can't escape but I feel angry for His lack of support even when I was praying everyday. Eventually I will talked to Him again. I feel evil people prosper but if you try to do the right thing you get punish. i FEEL LIKE TELLING TO WORLD TO FUCK ALL . FUCK THE WHOLE WORLD. I DECLARE WAR ON EVERYBODY. That's how feel. I feel purposeless. All my education and learning have failed. I should have cheated in school to get ahead because those fuckers are making a good living know. I don't know what to do. Do anybody know what I'm going through?