I just recently realized is it possible that i need anger? like, as in a drug high?? i just posted something on here, and i replied to someone who replied to me and realized that mayb im responding to this woman who is pissing me off, just to get the high of anger. but im worried because if i get high enough off of the anger i get upset to the crying point and when it gets that bad, it goes over to a post i did in the self injury group, if i get that upset, i cut, and iv been off cutting for over a year now, so then it sorta turns to a homicidal urge, and that sort of turns to the woman that was so unnecassarily cruel to me, and i want to kill her, i want to kill her so bad, but im worried that im making her say these things to me after the fact, because im addicted to something so bad, im addicted to the cutting so bad that its involved in this big circle that is coming around....i dont know what to do....
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