Where to start? Seriously considering asking my Ortho for an elective amputation. Im 32 years old, mom of 2. Ive had 4 knee surgeries (tibial Osteotomy, revision for non union, tibial osteotomy, partial hardware removal). I have a varus deformity, with instability, post lateral thrust. I have been passed from one ortho to the next (meeting #5 this fall) because of the complexity of surgeries ive had and the current status of my leg. The last ortho retired however, at our last post op (last week) his recommendation to me was to do 2 more osteotomies, one femoral and one tibial in order to realign my leg, and unload my knee joint (to buy time before a knee replacement) but to face the fact that I have to adjust /acept my life / activity level as its not going to change that I can only do things to mitigate the arthritis but that it will enivetabily get worse. Im ready to ask for an amputation. Ive been doing A LOT of reading on osteotomies, knee replacements and amputations and the reality of it is that ive had 3 osteotomies already, i know the time and effort to recover, i have yet to have one be successful and the though of going through 2 more to me seems crazy considering how little they have done for me so far. The idea of a knee replacement seems a great option but im only 32 and they arent made to handle high activity levels, and often require revisions. The idea of an amputation, though crazy at first, is more and more appealing to me. It would be one final surgery, no more pain, Im young enough to recover well, the outcome is more promising to me then my other options. I could maybe even run again! Because of my current limitations, Im losing my job, I cant do things around the house, i have a hard time playing with my kids. My quality of life is quickly diminishing and I just want to go back to doing the things i love. I hear all these great stories of people who have had amputations and lead 'normal' lives. I dont want to keep taking meds, use a cane, or suffer on a daily basis. When is enough enough? when do i say "stop the trail and error and make it better already" I feel like i keep having surgeries (with a lot of pain and long time recovery) with no positive outcome and im tired of wasting all this time hoping something will get better, when i could just take the final leap, have an amputation and start living my life again!!!
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