Amnesia Support Group
Amnesia (or amnaesia) is a condition in which memory is disturbed. The causes of amnesia are organic or functional. Organic causes include damage to the brain, through trauma or disease, or use of certain (generally sedative) drugs. Functional causes are psychological factors, such as defense mechanisms. Hysterical post-traumatic amnesia is an example of this. Amnesia may...
Anyone else out there who has experienced this?
I can't remember dating and falling in love with my husband. It's heartbreaking.
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More of the story: our marriage fell apart.
There were many factors, including a shift in our normal 'husband-and-wife' roles as he became my caretaker and I was more of his patient. My depression is treatment resistant and disabling. Last year at this time I was wrapping up a session of Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT). I've been experiencing the memory loss as a side effect since then.
In our relationship, we seemed to act more like friends or even just roommates, conversation dropped, we ignored each other in favor of personal computer time. Our sex life was non-existent. Because of my severe depression and its symptoms, he lost his attraction to me.
I turned to a friend and that friend relationship took on a flirtation and developed into a very serious attraction. I fell in love with him. It was all too easy to do because I couldn't remember the times I spent with my own husband -- who wasn't even interested in me.
Months passed. I talked with my husband about the other guy. We discussed different options. We saw a couples therapist for a handful of sessions. My husband wanted to try, to keep trying. I filed for divorce.
I moved in with the other guy. I regretted it every single day. I cried probably every day, most days for hours. I was suicidal. I missed my husband; he was/is truly my best friend.
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Currently:
I finally moved back in with my parents. I'm now hoping my husband will be interested in me again, hopefully for more than our friendship, to reconcile, but it seems so impossible. I struggle with the amnesia and still end up getting lost while out driving around holiday shopping.
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I needed to tell this story... and hope someone listens. I don't have anyone else.
I can't remember dating and falling in love with my husband. It's heartbreaking.
- - -
More of the story: our marriage fell apart.
There were many factors, including a shift in our normal 'husband-and-wife' roles as he became my caretaker and I was more of his patient. My depression is treatment resistant and disabling. Last year at this time I was wrapping up a session of Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT). I've been experiencing the memory loss as a side effect since then.
In our relationship, we seemed to act more like friends or even just roommates, conversation dropped, we ignored each other in favor of personal computer time. Our sex life was non-existent. Because of my severe depression and its symptoms, he lost his attraction to me.
I turned to a friend and that friend relationship took on a flirtation and developed into a very serious attraction. I fell in love with him. It was all too easy to do because I couldn't remember the times I spent with my own husband -- who wasn't even interested in me.
Months passed. I talked with my husband about the other guy. We discussed different options. We saw a couples therapist for a handful of sessions. My husband wanted to try, to keep trying. I filed for divorce.
I moved in with the other guy. I regretted it every single day. I cried probably every day, most days for hours. I was suicidal. I missed my husband; he was/is truly my best friend.
- - -
Currently:
I finally moved back in with my parents. I'm now hoping my husband will be interested in me again, hopefully for more than our friendship, to reconcile, but it seems so impossible. I struggle with the amnesia and still end up getting lost while out driving around holiday shopping.
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I needed to tell this story... and hope someone listens. I don't have anyone else.
I don't have amnesia, I have a genetic blood disorder but I thought I would look on the other boards out of curiosity and found your story. I can't believe no one replied to your post.
I just said 10 prayers for you. I hope things have improved for you.
Peace,
E
he's an amazing man and I do feel lucky to have him and I just can't explain it. I know exactly what your going through and I really hope things get better