Alzheimer's Disease Support Group
Alzheimer's disease (AD) is the most common cause of dementia and characterized by progressive cognitive deterioration with declining activities of daily living and neuropsychiatric symptoms or behavioral changes. An early symptom is memory loss (amnesia), usually manifesting as minor forgetfulness that becomes pronounced with illness progression, with relative...
to save effort I am pasting an email I sent to a couple of people non-DS members, but it is how I feel
I don't feel like talking so, I am sending this instead, I sure could use a nice hug, anyway....
I feel so incredibly sad today, just like it is soooooo deep, like the sadness is EVERYWHERE so that is why it is hard for me to even speak, it hurts to talk, literally. If you want to call me it would be ok, but it is also ok if you don't, I think I need a day to just absorb it all. I Cannot believe I am experiencing this SHITLOAD of crap and how rough and hard and painful and sickening. I feel numb, like I am walking around in a separate world or something, like, like I'm not really here.
I don't feel like talking so, I am sending this instead, I sure could use a nice hug, anyway....
I feel so incredibly sad today, just like it is soooooo deep, like the sadness is EVERYWHERE so that is why it is hard for me to even speak, it hurts to talk, literally. If you want to call me it would be ok, but it is also ok if you don't, I think I need a day to just absorb it all. I Cannot believe I am experiencing this SHITLOAD of crap and how rough and hard and painful and sickening. I feel numb, like I am walking around in a separate world or something, like, like I'm not really here.
Its like all the s-it is hitting the fan and it is all so real and overwhelming. I can't even believe its really happening ....even after all this time I really somehow don't think I am prepared for whats next.
Its like the good and bad were going to go on forever and now its almost all bad and it is scaring the he-l out of me to think of life without him in it.(even this life)
Why can't we just wake up from this horrible dream! I am with you and afraid we are together at this point...I pray God helps us get through this.
I'm sorry you are in such a bad place... and hope tomorrow is
better.
praying for strength and a better tomorrow ....
I had to remind myself often of something my sister told me....
"It wont always be like this"
I know that gives little comfort, but eventually i understood it. Know that we all here love you, and are sending healing vibes and happy thoughts your way. And remember YOU are never alone. We are here and by your side in spirit during the roughest times.
((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Janel
Hugs,
Sandy
I love you, little sister,
Sharon