ALL MOODY BLUES Community Group
This group is for all people, no matter what disease, disorder, or life issue that causes you moody times and needs a little support or wants to give support. Be yourself, have fun meeting new people that care and understand you. RULES- show respect, no extra drama, no bashing, keep personal info confidential , and don't give advice [ if asked ok] . problems or...
I always feel singled out everyday of my life as if i walk along the crowds of people here at work alone,by myself and people are staring and pointing and laughing at me. I feel alone inside and out.....I never feel as if i have help or support from anyone at work or home.....I feel as if the world is out to get me and i cant do anything to change the determination of it to fuck my life up constantly. So my depression kicks in along with my anxiety and then that combo just pisses me off and i start lashing out at anything and anyone around me. Thats when everything around me becomes unstable and even my wife threatens to leave me....and all because of my inability to cope with everyday situations.
This is how i feel
This is how i feel
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grill tonight with charcoal.....turned out good but had some stuff that I had to feed to Belle and Happy because it was grissley. it tasted pretty good and was a perfect mid rare....
I am so sorry you have to feel this day in and day out. I hope you can find the right help and figure this out. If at all possible find a therapist that does DBT therapy along with other therapies. Not to "focus" on, but knowing the different types of therapies, it seems that sort of therapist helps out the most. I had to "retrain my brain" (i tell my daughter to do this regularly, and it is working). Basically brainwashing myself to (and herself) until it comes naturally. I hope these words help, even a little. It's so hard, but don't give up, keep sticking with it until you figure out what works for you.
Many people feel exactly the way you described. I think maybe some cognitive therapy would help you.
Especially before your wife leaves you hun. Also are you medicated? Especially for anxiety. I think this is effecting the way you view the world right now. You feel paranoid and you can't trust any one. Then you feel frustrated over your situation and blow up at every one.
It's time to start opening your eyes a little bit. Try to calm your self down when you feel upset. It's difficult to change your thoughts but in this case I think you need to try it. When you start thinking that you are alone and no one understands you, you have to talk your self out of it. By thinking the opposite.
"Maybe I'm not alone. Maybe I'm the one who misunderstood them."
And then try to think carefully about the way events unfolded and if you could have possibly took something the wrong way. Perhaps people have tried to help or support you in the past but nothing they did helped you so they gave up. This is something that's coming from inside you, there is not much other people can do to help you with your emotions and thoughts?
What is it exactly that you want from the people around you? If you think they should be able to fix you or magically make you feel better they won't be able to. All they can do is listen and the rest is up to you. The truth is you may be driving the very people away who are trying to help you. But because your mind is clouded with your fear that no one understands you you can not see that.
It's time to start opening up your own mind to the possibility that you haven't been seeing things very clearly. And if you can't seem to change your negative thoughts then it's a chemical imbalance and you need to be medicated for it. It's hard to see clearly if a disorder is clouding your mind. It can effect your behavior and personality right down to your relationships and your ability to work be successful and happy in life.
So it's time to start doing something different because this sounds more like the problem is with in you. It's the way you look at the world that is causing this. Unless you can provide evidence that what I've said is true? And that the world really is against you?
And just as you said in the very last sentence of your OP. You need to learn some coping skills. This where going to a psychologist and cognitive therapy can help you. It will teach you coping skills so that you don't destroy the relationships you still have.
You don't have to keep living like this. There is another way to live and you deserve to live it just like every one else. But you are the only one who can do it for your self no one else can. I can't hold you down and tie you up and control your life. Even if I could it wouldn't change you internally would it? You would still resent and feel anger anxiety and depression. You would still feel the world was out to get you.
I hope that helps you.
And let me know if you need to talk to some one. You can message me any time if you feel like it.
I'm not judging you hun
I just worry because every thing you are feeling is a deadly path that can lead to a lot of misery. But you still have a wife so if you can get a hold of this now then count your self lucky. A lot of people don't have coping skills and some of them end up in very unlucky circumstances because of it.