ALL MOODY BLUES Community Group
This group is for all people, no matter what disease, disorder, or life issue that causes you moody times and needs a little support or wants to give support. Be yourself, have fun meeting new people that care and understand you. RULES- show respect, no extra drama, no bashing, keep personal info confidential , and don't give advice [ if asked ok] . problems or...
Hey so tonight was an unusually bad night for me and I decided that I just need some sort of support, somewhere I can talk open and honestly about what i'm feeling and why. I guess i'll start with a little backstory, otherwise this might be a little confusing to understand where i'm coming from.
I'm 18, struggling with depression for about four years now. I began self injuring at the age of 14 and developed an eating disorder at the age of fifteen. About six months ago, I tried to kill myself for the first time. the next couple of months after that I was in and out of psych hospitals with more suicidal ideation and attempts. In February of 2011 I was sent to a residential treatment facility, timberline knolls (also known as rehab) where i stayed in treatment for a mood disorder and eating disorder for three months. Just this past may I signed myself out and I have been doing relatively fine with my mood disorder. Lately however I have just been feeling quite a bit of regret and fear surrounding my stay in residential and the possibility of relapse. I suppose having Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew marathons don't help me much either. Anyway, I just thought it would be nice to be able to talk openly about everything (seeing as most people I know don't know about my depression) and getting some support.
So thanks for listening to my ramblings. :)
I'm 18, struggling with depression for about four years now. I began self injuring at the age of 14 and developed an eating disorder at the age of fifteen. About six months ago, I tried to kill myself for the first time. the next couple of months after that I was in and out of psych hospitals with more suicidal ideation and attempts. In February of 2011 I was sent to a residential treatment facility, timberline knolls (also known as rehab) where i stayed in treatment for a mood disorder and eating disorder for three months. Just this past may I signed myself out and I have been doing relatively fine with my mood disorder. Lately however I have just been feeling quite a bit of regret and fear surrounding my stay in residential and the possibility of relapse. I suppose having Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew marathons don't help me much either. Anyway, I just thought it would be nice to be able to talk openly about everything (seeing as most people I know don't know about my depression) and getting some support.
So thanks for listening to my ramblings. :)
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
that'll explain it lol. it gets kinda emotional for me when i watch it and reminded me from when i was in rehab, soo.
you are have a lot to deal with self-harm, eating disorder, and suicide attempts with the depression. That is a lot of overcome. As you still self -injury and the eating disorder?
Well we are here to listen and chat with you if and when you want.
*hug*
My son is 11 and has also had similar problems with depression. He went into an inpatient treatment facility in Februrary, and it was very difficult for everyone. We all missed each other so much. I wanted to just drive over there and bring him home. But, as my boyfriend said, "Don't take the cake out of the oven before it is done!" I waited until the doc said he was ready. And, like you said, it helped. He has been doing really well. Although bad days are normal, overall he feels better. He used to pull his hair and eyelashes. He has almost completely stopped. Briefly, he did relapse and we thought he was going to have to go back for a while, but a med change helped him and he came out of it.
Things will get better, but listen to yourself. It sounds like you know yourself and you "own" your problems. Which, is a sign of true maturity. If you feel you shouldn't watch Dr. Drew, then maybe you shouldn't. If you feel you are starting to relapse, maybe you should at least talk to a doc or crisis counselor and get another opinion. Like I said, listen to yourself. It sounds like you are very in tune with your emotions. My son is the same way. He knows when he needs help and he tells me.
Things will get better.
Ink
I suppose you're all right. I just have so much fear that i'm going to relapse because if I do, i'm pretty much screwed. I'm going to New York University in the fall and if i do relapse its pretty much putting my whole future on the line. This whole depression business already screwed up my entire last semester of high school, and I regret it so much. I can't even imagine messing up my college plans over it.
Ink