Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I don't always know why I picked up again. Sometimes it seemed my willpower was weak and I gave in. Other times I just felt insane and incapable of a rational thought process to reason my way out of picking up. Still other times I felt I was "struck drunk" with no thought whatsoever. No matter what, I always hated myself and was full of shame and regret afterward. Why did I keep forgetting? Why couldn't I stop the relapse? Why did this keep happening?
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"If you ask him why he started on that last bender, the chances are he will offer you any one of a hundred alibis. Sometimes these excuses have a certain plausibility, but none of them really makes sense in the light of the havoc an alcoholic's drinking bout creates. They sound like the philosophy of the man who, having a headache, beats himself on the head with a hammer so that he can't feel the ache. If you draw this fallacious reasoning to the attention of an alcoholic, he will laugh it off, or become irritated and refuse to talk.
Once in a while he may tell the truth. And the truth, strange to say, is usually that he has no more idea why he took that first drink than you have. Some drinkers have excuses with which they are satisfied part of the time. But in their hearts they really do not know why they do it. Once this malady has a real hold, they are a baffled lot. There is the obsession that somehow, someday, they will beat the game. But they often suspect they are down for the count."
BB pg 23 "There is a solution"
http://www.whytehouse.com/big_book_search/aspbook/ch2p23.asp
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I found out I was not alone when I read this. I gave me some reprieve. The obsession to drink is something I still live with every day. Others have found a solution.
This is just something I'm sure many here can relate to. Even if you don't "buy into" AA's solution, you WILL be able to relate to the information. It helped me to read this stuff.
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"If you ask him why he started on that last bender, the chances are he will offer you any one of a hundred alibis. Sometimes these excuses have a certain plausibility, but none of them really makes sense in the light of the havoc an alcoholic's drinking bout creates. They sound like the philosophy of the man who, having a headache, beats himself on the head with a hammer so that he can't feel the ache. If you draw this fallacious reasoning to the attention of an alcoholic, he will laugh it off, or become irritated and refuse to talk.
Once in a while he may tell the truth. And the truth, strange to say, is usually that he has no more idea why he took that first drink than you have. Some drinkers have excuses with which they are satisfied part of the time. But in their hearts they really do not know why they do it. Once this malady has a real hold, they are a baffled lot. There is the obsession that somehow, someday, they will beat the game. But they often suspect they are down for the count."
BB pg 23 "There is a solution"
http://www.whytehouse.com/big_book_search/aspbook/ch2p23.asp
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I found out I was not alone when I read this. I gave me some reprieve. The obsession to drink is something I still live with every day. Others have found a solution.
This is just something I'm sure many here can relate to. Even if you don't "buy into" AA's solution, you WILL be able to relate to the information. It helped me to read this stuff.
Man, oh man, just grateful I ain't there today! :)
xo
For the record... There won't be another thread about me relapsing, so you don't have to worry next time I post a "worrisome" topic.