Welcome to the group!

Alcoholism is a symptom of deeper emotional issues. It's quite common for someone to quit one addiction and pick up another. That is because there is something inside you in need of healing. It could be a past trauma or unresolved guilt which you are holding onto. You don't want to deal with it or you don't want to feel the pain so you numb it with alcohol and this could be a totally subconscious reaction, which you are unaware of.

I remember I went through outpatient treatment and I was treated for my past traumas and what wasn't healed through counseling was healed through the 12 steps of AA which I highly recommend.

I tried to quit on my own hundreds of times but eventually I knew I needed help ....I went through outpatient treatment followed by AA meetings where I got a sponsor who guided me through the 12 steps. That was 12 years ago. Today I have a great life and I have never been happier.

The fact that you are here is a clue that your inner mind is asking for help.. Best place to start is to talk to your doctor who will evaluate you by asking a few questions and then recommend some treatment options, but in the end, it's totally your decision on how you want to handle your drinking problem... There are lots of people willing to help you stay sober but you can't be afraid to ask.

The path you take on your road to recovery may help someone else so keep us posted.

God Bless

Alcohol is a depressant. It IS a Drug. It was so addictive to me that I drank every day and didn’t even realize how bad it was in making my life sad.

So after work why don’t you just check out an aa meting ? I found relief in there 8 years ago. Life is better and I don’t obsess about that Depressing Drug

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You can do it, we all have, day by day, listen to the people here, log in daily for support, attend online AA zoom meetings, do whatever you can to not drink, and fill that space with other things, you can't change what you don't change, I am day 64 today, if I can do it, believe me, you can - I used drugs and alcohol - if you beat it now, you will save yourself a lifetime of pure hell, I wish I had have known when I was 21, this is your chance to save yourself, good luck and take care.

I used to do that. I used to obsess at work, about drinking. It would be three days before pay day and I would obsess all three days about exactly what I was going to do the minute I got off on Friday with my paycheck. I was going to get a 12 pack, and a bottle of whiskey, for sure, and then I had this thought of "Whatever happens after that happens."

Usually what happened was me getting drunk and something getting destroyed or someone either being terrified or in a fight with me or extremely angry at me.

That obsession was constant, and it got in the way of my concentration, and my functioning at work. I see now that it was a delusion, and the real problem was I was an alcoholic, obsessing about alcohol, which I have come to believe is abnormal for the human psyche.

I had to go to AA, and it saved me, and I can't afford to be shy about that. I had to gain an attitude of not caring if people know or if people don't understand either. It's is a very clear fact in my life, that when AA is a part of it, and I am going to meetings, reading the literature, talking to other alcoholics, working with new members, something happens to me on the inside that makes life not only tolerable, but wonderful at the same time.

I think if you got to AA directly after work, after some time, you'll see that you no longer obsess over alcohol at work, and your life will be much more enjoyable.