Don't feel stupid. Its a powerful disease.
I have struggled many years. Just don't give up trying..even if you fail...don't let it win...its sucks..I know.

yes it is, its all in my head, one minute I wanna drink the next I think wait...do I really? I remind myself how horrible I'll feel after and that the benefits aren't worth the risk (I dont wanna die), im learning what causes these triggers nd how to avoid them, environment, people, situations...nothing makes sense right now (it does but it doesn't, strange i know) I just wanna run away and start somewhere new

You may need to tell your doctor what's going on. There is no shame in what your going through, and there are meds to keep the anxiety of withdrawals under control. Unfortunately I've gone through it twice myself. That's the only way I kept from shaking apart at night. Your doc won't judge you, and it might get you past the breaking point.

I thought about doing that, i'd like to but I dont really have insurance a dr or a job so its kinda not an option right now

Hang in there. Drink TONS of liquids. Sounds like you are detoxing physically as well as mentally. You've likely made it through the worst......physically.
Are you in AA? Have other support? The feelings in early sobriety take a while to level out, at least they did for me. I was so grateful for the support of the women in AA. I am today too as I definetly I wouldn't have made it without them.

Don't let those 3 days of will power go to waste. Believe in yourself.

I needed other people to a take a repetitive position and come clean about all that that was really troubling me at least until I understood my own dilemma.

I got sober at a early age and hung around sober people who offered tons of ideas,approaches and solutions to my aloofness.

A frenzied recovery mode can create a moood that counteracts the frenzy with a sense of believing you know something now or are empowered.

False pretenses and believing you know something can be very narcissistic and sneaky I THink!.
Keep it simple!!
Billy

They say Beauty is only Skin Deep But feelings and trauma can inhabit to the marrow of our bones , hence the phrase deep seated :(((

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmfWSQspSo4

U might be able to get through this alone or U may not. I needed to go to a therapist. I was in pretty deep with the booze.
Whatever I do, don't say F it, U already have in 3 days.
Don't give in or you will have to start all over. It will be never ending and the torture will never stop. Say hello to your life without alcohol, it is possible and it is all up to U.

@stickywick I hope this is the worst, still haven't drank today...yet (jus went to the gym, ate that seemed to help a lil) but the urge is coming and going, i feel like i have to get drunk tonight or its the end of the world...as crazy as that sounds, and no i haven't been to aa I do have a few friends left I can kinda talk to that's about it, most of my relationships went to h3ll (probably cuz of my drinking) I just gotta try and tough it out I guess. psychically i feel fine (the worst I experienced was night sweats, which only happened on the first night, probably cuz ive been sweating it out at the gym like a mad man haha) but my minds racing around like crazy, thats the hardest part for me...its exhausting :/ Idk what to do with myself

Hello whyzac,

There is a saying called Restless, irritable and discontented that is used to describe how some people feel after they stop drinking as you have now done. Many of these people find that staying sober is a hard struggle and they are engaged in a constant battle against the urge to drink. All sorts of activities will be tried in order to keep the mind off the thought of drinking and this approach may or may not work. The more time that passes since the last drink the easier it gets to stay sober. However, many of those who do manage to achieve a long period of sobriety find that they are not happy with life and that they still struggle against the urge to drink. Some will successfully use their willpower and stay sober and for others a day will come when life issues look too difficult and they will drink again.

There is an alternative approach to sobriety, one that removes the struggle and leads to a life of peace and serenity. This approach involves a process of change in the way of thinking so that alcohol is no longer an issue. Such a solution would be useless if it did not suggest a method of dealing with the issue of living, with all of its high and low points so it provides a toolkit for living.

You are now at a crossroads and you have an important decision to make. You can continue on the path you are now travelling and hope that your struggle with alcohol will become easier. By putting more and more sober days under your belt you will probably find that it does indeed get easier and it may be that you will solve the drinking problem in this way.

The other path leads to a different approach and it offers you great possibilities. Not only can the urge to drink be removed but you can also learn new ways of dealing with people, places and things so that you will react sanely in the good days and the bad days. It also allows you to learn about how you can make the most of life and to use your talents to the maximum without fear of failure. In short, the only limit to what you can achieve with this approach is what you are prepared to put into it. This radical change in thinking does not come about naturally and therefore it needs work and guidance. There are probably many places where you will find such guidance and one such place is Alcoholics Anonymous.

You are standing at the crossroads choose your path wisely and you will find the light.

The drink was just a symptom. The problem with me was i am an alcoholic and I just default to drinking. I drank to get away from me. Problem was when I woke up I was still there.

Find other ppl that have been right where you are and they want to help you. in a strange way it helps them to help you. Go get help and get thru this tough time and start to live!

I am so glad i did on June 9.2012 I would be dead if i didnt.

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