I am an alcoholic and my life is unmanagable.
I have come to believe that a God is real, I do not have the power to completely understand it, but it does have the power to keep me from drinking, and has a plan where I help others as a solution.
I have the power to decide to allow this God to do great things for myself and others in ALL areas of life.
I can detail and find the ungodly characteristics I have that prevent the actual God from genuinely connecting with me. I know much of my ungodliness stems from ignorance and my ego. I know whenever I am selfish, life is not as great as it could have been. I also know that denying or minimizing the fact that I have a body that when alcohol is taken it will crave more, makes doing the rest of the work pointless. Once convinced I am the real alcoholic the books speaks of, I also can accept that doing the rest of the work, after identifying I have a body that craves alcohol, with no power to say no to that craving, will prevent that next drink from ever being a reality.
After finding things defective in my mind, through following the books suggestions, in order, I find going forward if I confess wrong, and pray to do the right things, and the power to do those right things, I will suddenly realize I am living a life I always dreamed of living.
After seeing the problem, confessing it, then following suggestions to solve or tame it, I now have a message of hope, solution, peace, clarity, and love. To think something so beautiful came from some often criticized and usually pushed to the side steps, is amazing. Not only are the steps cost-effective (their free to do!) but very reliable. The pride of the ego wants me to have a more enticing story than simply doing some steps, but the reality is the steps, and doing them daily, is much more powerful than the prestige and recognition the ego is always seeking.
I get discouraged when people are turned off by the message, don't care for what I am saying, or just see me as someone who talks alot, but I know God would want me to share his power so his children can experience it more so than not.
When I ask myself what message I am spreading, I know I can answer sounding, I am spreading a real and honest message. That message is change is real, staying sober and recovered is acheivable, and as a primary purpose, I can live an awesome life without alcohol and help others to do so.
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